(Written in July 2005)
Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling sad and discouraged and lonely. Please help me.
Dear Jenny, lay your heavy aching heart on the Ocean of Compassion. We are with you, we are all here, and we love you. There is nothing you can do but continue to grieve the losses, to honor the wounds that have left you so vulnerable, that make it a continual struggle to keep your creative process flowing, that make it so hard to be friendly, reach out, start conversations, get co-creative projects off the ground. These things are all too much for you most of the time. Not because you are lazy or weak, but because you have painful wounds still unhealed. There is not much help from the culture, which actively opposes the healing process and makes it necessary to go into retreat, to do your healing work in therapy or in your studio. But an important part of healing is the participation of the community. You can’t heal all by yourself. You need to tell your story to receptive witnesses, so you can feel it be received with compassion. This is the next step in your healing. We will help you design a ritual for yourself. Remember that we love you and want you to be healed.
I was reading my journal for 2005 and came across this which blew me away in the light of the ritual I did last November.
For the story of the “Ocean of Compassion” see the blog post for April 29, 2010