Monthly Archives: March 2012

Depression

Posted on March 6, 2012 by jenny

(Written in November 2004) Woke feeling bleak.  Hard to get out of bed.  Dizzy at first.  Feeling very low in my heart.  Thinking that death would be a relief, it’s just too hard to live.  And yet there’s nothing particularly … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on March 5, 2012 by jenny

(Written in July 2004) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling lost and a little scared about my recent inability to stay on top of the Neskaya administrative stuff.  Please help me!     Dear Jenny, breathe, relax, you’re doing fine.  … Continue reading →

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Five of Water

Posted on March 4, 2012 by jenny

(Written in June 2004) Day started badly.  Found bank deposit that I prepared before I left for Kripalu & forgot.   I feel out of control.  This scares me because it looks like a coping strategy that has served me all … Continue reading →

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Having a Hard Time

Posted on March 3, 2012 by jenny

(Written in June 2004) A really bad night.  Dogs barking, didn’t call cops.  My heart just ached.  I tried to bring compassion to it without success.  It’s slap in my face how little control I have.  I can’t even stop … Continue reading →

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