Category Archives: Depression

My Life

Posted on August 24, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2007) I’ve spent my life struggling with the wounds of childhood and trying to heal.  I used to think that someday I’d be better and I’d get to have a real life.  But I’m beginning to see … Continue reading →

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Angry Five-Year-Old

Posted on August 23, 2010 by jenny

(Written in December 2006) Karen helped me shift from conflict about “being open to a lover” to paying attention to the part of myself that I would rather let be dead.  What I saw was a just raped 5 year … Continue reading →

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What not to say to us

Posted on August 22, 2010 by jenny

(I wrote this in 1990, for a friend of mine struggling with PTSD.  At the time I knew I was having a somewhat similar struggle with depression, but I had no idea I was dealing with PTSD too.) What not … Continue reading →

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Guidance for Depression

Posted on August 21, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2006) Lit a candle for spiritual help.  I’m feeling awful — I don’t even know how to describe it.  Sad, lost, bereft, worthless, meaningless.  I feel like my life is going to go on like this — … Continue reading →

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What Might Help

Posted on August 20, 2010 by jenny

January 2006 I realized this morning that the search for the right dose of the right medication may take a long time, in which case I’ll have to live with depression for quite a while.  So I’ve let go of … Continue reading →

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Guidance for help in depression

Posted on August 17, 2010 by jenny

Woke up this morning feeling pretty depressed.  This has been going on for about a week with no obvious cause.  I’m really discouraged. Dear Guides & Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling completely bummed out, see no reason to go on, have … Continue reading →

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Dialogues with Little Jenny

Posted on August 14, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2007) Leaving for Kripalu today.  Woke early, a little scared.  Prayed for help and took a Buspar.  Yesterday I had lots of times of “blind terror” when I just couldn’t think. ME: Little Jenny, we’re going to … Continue reading →

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Cold Intellectual Place

Posted on August 11, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2007) Bad morning.  Woke up feeling nauseous and in that cold detached place.  Trying to think who this cold intellectual place could be (what an odd phrasing!) I think it’s the five-year-old.  She’s fed up with a … Continue reading →

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Guidance for Discouragement

Posted on June 28, 2010 by jenny

(Written in May 2005) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m deeply discouraged about what we humans are doing to the planet, and it feels almost impossible to go ahead and do what I need to do to take care of … Continue reading →

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Grieving

Posted on June 14, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2009) I’m guessing that I’m angry at myself for still being sad.  I should be through with the grief work by now.  I’ve read everything I’ve written to a sympathetic listener, some to more than one.  So … Continue reading →

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