From today’s email from Matt Licata: This tenderizing deep in the soul activates the blue ones, a group of inner figures who carry grief that has until now remained unfelt, somatic and imaginal pieces of the unlived life who long for illumination and holding.
Grief that until now remained unfelt, pieces of unlived life. This rings a bell for me. I think about never having had a good sexual relationship, and only one good sexual experience. I think about my creativity that only managed a part of what was in me to manifest. I don’t even know what capacity there is in me to love and help people, I feel like I never did much of that. And I wish I had been able to put more energy into working on environmental issues like stopping global warming. Yes, I can feel grief for these parts of my unlived life.
I also think, without my struggle with depression and trauma, I might have been able to live a life more dedicated to Spirit. Then again, without the pain of depression, I might never have turned to Spirit.
Interestingly, listing my failures immediately brings up my one big success: Neskaya. I did manage to create, or bring through from the imaginal realm, one thing that made a huge difference in many lives.