The Ongoing Disaster

(Written in July 2005)
Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m feeling hugely sad.  I think it’s because our country, with its founding vision of democracy, has gotten so badly off track, creating a culture of money and power that is destroying so much that is of value on our beautiful planet.
Dear Jenny, stay with the sadness.  It is legitimate, it is profoundly right to be sad when seeing something, which had great promise and tremendous resources, go so badly astray.  You are also sad because you feel like your ability to make a difference is pitifully tiny compared to the enormity of this ongoing disaster.  You feel like you are fighting a losing battle for which you are badly equipped.  The losses and wounds of your childhood sap the energy you need to take courageous action in the face of overwhelming difficulties, and you feel like you are slipping backwards in your efforts for healing both yourself and the planet.  Dear Jenny, every day you take courageous action in the face of overwhelming difficulties.  Just getting through the day takes courage.  Getting out of bed takes courage, making art, writing in your journal, all are courageous actions in the face of overwhelming difficulties.  As is teaching Sacred Circle Dance.  Your only failure is to acknowledge the greatness of what you are already doing.  Give yourself some credit for your actual accomplishments.  Dear One, just by holding your vision of Planet Earth, by appreciating the trees you see from your window, by not giving in to brain chemistry and trauma symptoms, you are doing good work for the planet you love.  Yes, even staying with the sadness makes a difference.  Know that you are very much loved.