(Written in February 2010)
Saturday was pretty tough. I didn’t have anybody set up. When I was feeling so lonely & scared & sad I called Ann to see if she could come for a walk and she said yes! So we had tea. I told her I was doing badly and cried a little bit. Then I got talking about the White Mountain School (I had been asked to give a talk) and astronomy and paradigm shift. When we went out to walk Bella, it felt warmer out. We did the whole trail and then Ann left.
I felt enough better to go on with my day. I did a dump run and shopped at Mac’s.
Monday morning was really tough. I was badly depressed. Linda came about 12:15 and we walked both dogs on the Fox Hill trail along the river. Just past the beach there was a section of ice over the trail so we turned back. It took about 40 minutes. Then we came back here & had cups of tea and I read some of my resource passages, & cried a little. When she left I expected to fall back down into the pit of despair, but I didn’t.