Monthly Archives: July 2010

Ashram Day

Posted on July 21, 2010 by jenny

(Written in February 2007) My heart feels exploded with terror.  My brain’s not working very well.  I can’t tell if that’s because I’m scared, or if that’s what’s making me scared.  Can I bring kindness to my fear?  Can I … Continue reading →

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Wild Turkeys

Posted on July 20, 2010 by jenny

It was 1996, the summer from Hell.  In February I had tried Paxil for 5 days while my terror shot through the roof & got worse & worse until the 5th night when I didn’t sleep at all.  So I … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on July 19, 2010 by jenny

(Written in August 2008) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I’m tired and bummed out.  All the talk around me has been of people struggling with unfair governmental, bureaucratic, societal practices, and people who are too numb to care or fight … Continue reading →

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Dialogue with Little Jenny

Posted on July 18, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2003) In a panic.  Sitting here with a cup of tea to be with it.  The usual breathless dissolving feeling in my upper body.  It began when I couldn’t find the list.  I kept telling myself there … Continue reading →

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Guidance

Posted on July 17, 2010 by jenny

(Written in January 2003) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, please help me. Dear Jenny, you are doing just fine.  You are getting better and better at being with the fear.  We rejoice that you are doing so much better.  Do … Continue reading →

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The Traumatized Baby

Posted on July 11, 2010 by jenny

(Written in June 2004) In a session of the “Wave Work” at Kripalu: there was a confusing struggle with my body’s tendency to cramp up (esp left hand) and kick, shake, jump.  Finally I let it shrivel up into a … Continue reading →

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From Empire to Earth Community

Posted on July 10, 2010 by jenny

In June of 2006 I read David Korten’s book The Great Turning, from Empire to Earth Community.  I got it as a gift for being a supporter of the Positive Futures Network. Human development does not proceed in a linear, … Continue reading →

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Woman in Her Third Blooming

Posted on July 9, 2010 by jenny

I wrote this in December 2005:  I’m feeling very angry and resentful that I’ve worked so hard for so long and don’t have any rewards.  Well, there are some rewards, they’re just few and far between.  I’m angry that I’ve … Continue reading →

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Struggle to Love Myself

Posted on July 8, 2010 by jenny

On May 14, I posted a writing about my struggle to love myself.  It was written in June 2004: I need space and time and permission — more than permission, I need to know beyond a shadow of a doubt … Continue reading →

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Awakening Kali

Posted on July 7, 2010 by jenny

Ingrid Bacci wrote a book called The Art of Effortless Living.  I liked it, so in March of 2008 I went to her workshop at Kripalu. I signed up for a private session, and it was pretty amazing.  Here are … Continue reading →

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