(Written in January 2008)
\n\tI am feeling so sad. I think it must be all the reminders of things I didn\u2019t get, and didn\u2019t get to do in this life, a consequence of reading \u201cThe Shell Seekers.\u201d A loving relationship with one\u2019s mother. Family feasts \u2014 or group, tribal feasts \u2014 of good food, good conversation, real caring. Actually I\u2019ve had quite a lot of those with friends. Enjoyment of life\u2019s simple pleasures is another loss. And there\u2019s also sadness for the destruction of the earth, and all the people living in poverty and oppression.<\/p>\n
\tI\u2019m feeling really bleak. Part of it is yesterday\u2019s sadness for the losses of my life, and the strangely negative quality of them: not having something \u2014 like a great love \u2014 and then losing it to death, but never having had it at all. Even to know the loss, there has to be some perception of what it is you\u2019ve lost. I\u2019ve been a long time coming to get some inkling of what it might have been like to have a loving parent, and one who gave gifts of character and wisdom, instead of one who destroyed and invalidated.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in January 2008) I am feeling so sad. I think it must be all the reminders of things I didn\u2019t get, and didn\u2019t get to do in this life, a consequence of reading \u201cThe Shell Seekers.\u201d A loving relationship … Continue reading