{"id":8840,"date":"2025-05-26T10:20:42","date_gmt":"2025-05-26T14:20:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=8840"},"modified":"2025-05-26T10:20:42","modified_gmt":"2025-05-26T14:20:42","slug":"limited-by-early-traumatic-wounding","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=8840","title":{"rendered":"Limited by Early Traumatic Wounding"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Finished reading <a href=\"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=8832\">Memorial Days by Geraldine Brooks<\/a>, about the death of her husband and their marriage.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I felt very jealous of their relationship.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>My 18 year marriage with Dana was wrecked by the fact that I was dealing with trauma and didn\u2019t know it.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I look at my life and wonder about what I have done with my life that I could consider worthwhile.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I think of <a href=\"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=3533\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Journey Into Courage<\/a> \u2014 4 years of performances on the road, and then Bess made a movie.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>We woke a lot of people up about the realities of domestic violence.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>Then there was teaching Sacred Circle Dance in <a href=\"https:\/\/neskaya.com\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Neskaya<\/a>, the building Dana and I built deliberately as a sacred space for movements arts that are also spiritual practices.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>We opened with classes in yoga, aikido, and sacred dance.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I taught sacred dance there for 25 years.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I feel very good about having done that.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>I had hoped to be able to continue teaching after I moved to Kendal at Hanover, but I was too tired to do the drive and then COVID hit.<span class=\"Apple-converted-space\">\u00a0 <\/span>For reasons I don\u2019t understand, COVID triggered my PTSD, and I have ended up in assisted living.<\/p>\n<p>Realizing that I have done some worthwhile things with my life, and reminding myself that I have been dealing with PTSD helps a lot. \u00a0I haven&#8217;t wasted my life, I have struggled with being wounded, and still managed to do some things that were worthwhile.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Finished reading Memorial Days by Geraldine Brooks, about the death of her husband and their marriage.\u00a0 I felt very jealous of their relationship.\u00a0 My 18 year marriage with Dana was wrecked by the fact that I was dealing with trauma &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=8840\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6,4,20],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-8840","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-circle-dance","category-trauma","category-vocation"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8840","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8840"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8840\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8840"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8840"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8840"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}