(Written in April 2009)
\n\tLaura asked how we transform feelings by using the dance. It sounded like both Jan and Laura have a way of sending negative energy into the ground through their feet, Laura then invokes the energy of the earth. She says negative emotions can be turned into energy which is neutral & can be used for positive action. This all sounds unbelievably far beyond me at the moment.
\n\tI feel so inadequate to be participating in this training, and I feel like I\u2019m not at all ready for any kind of initiation. What do I need? What do I want? I need to be healed from some very deep old wounds, and the only thing I know that works is Somatic Experiencing \u2014 although the grief work does seem to be making a difference as well.
\n\tI feel so much grief and anger that I haven\u2019t been able to participate and enjoy these days with this group of women. I\u2019m afraid the anger is directed at myself \u2014 for not being stronger, or more courageous, or something. Laura says we can make a choice \u2014 but I don\u2019t see any choices, or only limited ones. I can, and do, choose to be present to my experience, I can and do choose to extend compassion to myself in my suffering. I don\u2019t see how to turn depression and terror into positive energy for living.<\/p>\n
\tThis morning I was saying how bad I felt that I wasn\u2019t able to participate more and Laura said \u201cYou are present with your vulnerable broken heart, and you are taking care of yourself, and you are a model for all of us.\u201d Her support has helped a lot. This morning she suggested I do floor work while the rest did \u201cMiddle Eastern Garden.\u201d I also tried to let my grief soak out of my heart into the earth. Feeling better this afternoon.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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