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This was originally written in July 2005, and posted in April 2011. At that time I was still writing to my “Guides and Guardian Spirits.” I had some answers where they seemed to fall for my wrong idea that I had to help everybody who asked. So I didn’t write for guidance for a while. Then, when I started going to Quaker Meeting, and learned that Quakers taught about consulting an “Inner Teacher” who represented God, I began to write for guidance from “Inner Teacher<\/a>.”\u00a0I find this particular Guidance interesting enough to re-post:<\/p>\n

Rupert Sheldrake and Matthew Fox in Natural Grace<\/a> talk about the soul, how it\u2019s like a field, centered on the body but bigger than the body \u2014 \u201cthe body is in the soul\u201d \u2014 our souls overlap and interpenetrate so that what happens in one affects all the others \u2014 which validates my idea that my work on myself affects the human energy field.\u00a0 Perhaps it\u2019s also true that I\u2019m working on more than my \u201cown\u201d stuff \u2014 part of why it\u2019s been so hard and such a struggle is I\u2019m fighting against, or fighting to transform, all the negativity that\u2019s out there, the denied depression and despair and grief and fear.\u00a0 If I knew that was true?\u00a0 Well then at least I could feel that my life isn\u2019t wasted, even tho I never got enough of the experiences \u2014 friendship, lovers, worthwhile tasks, fun, creativity \u2014 that would make life enjoyable.\u00a0 I guess I have to let myself grieve for all that \u2014 hopefully so I can come back to a place of being grateful for what I do have and let go of the bitterness about what I didn\u2019t get.<\/p>\n

Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, I\u2019m feeling very sad about my wrecked life, about all the things I never got to do that would have brought satisfaction and pleasure, and that my chances of being able to widen my life to include more satisfaction and pleasure look very slim at the moment.<\/em>
\nDear Jenny, nine years ago, when you opened Neskaya, you were profoundly depressed and terrified.\u00a0 You were afraid that you might not even be able to teach two hours of dance a week.\u00a0 Since that time, you have tackled and succeeded with a number of things: all-day dances, workshops with British teachers, Dancing the Sacred Calendar, painting with Aviva Gold.\u00a0 You tried a number of things which didn\u2019t last for a variety of reasons.\u00a0 You\u2019ve made a lot of new friends.\u00a0 Even tho people move away, new ones have come.\u00a0 You have incorporated, applied for and got tax-exempt status and set up an endowment fund.\u00a0 You have changed your investments to socially responsible ones, and built yourself a house.\u00a0 You have made a positive contribution to the lives of many people: some you know, and others you don\u2019t know about.\u00a0 You got on medication, weathered a painful divorce, and have done major healing work with Somatic Experiencing.\u00a0 This is all a tremendous achievement.\u00a0 You have trouble seeing it because the amount of healing you have done has made it easier to see the empty places in your life, and to see how much work and confidence and support is needed to be able to do some of the things you want to do: the Winter Solstice Pageant for example.\u00a0 You are seeing more clearly how badly you were damaged in childhood.\u00a0 You also have many fears: when your ankles hurt, or your energy ebbs, or only a few people come to dance \u2014 that this is the beginning of the end, that whatever it is will not recover and come back.\u00a0 You have suffered many losses, and haven\u2019t had much chance to learn that things do return.\u00a0 But they do: your ankles are fine now, your energy will come back, and people will always come to dance.\u00a0 We suggest you use this low time to relax and rest, practice doing nothing, spend time with darkness and silence.\u00a0 This will nourish your own life, and even as you nourish yourself, you also bring healing to the planet you love.\u00a0 Rest on this dear Jenny.\u00a0 For all the pain and misery in your life, you are not adding any pain to the world.\u00a0 Even this is a tremendous achievement.\u00a0 Let go, let down, be at peace, rest on the Everlasting Arms, they are there for you.\u00a0 We love you, dear Jenny, and you are doing fine just as you are.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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