{"id":8312,"date":"2024-02-10T12:53:39","date_gmt":"2024-02-10T17:53:39","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=8312"},"modified":"2024-02-10T12:53:39","modified_gmt":"2024-02-10T17:53:39","slug":"help-from-inner-teacher-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=8312","title":{"rendered":"Help from Inner Teacher"},"content":{"rendered":"

Written today. Looking back, I see that I’ve only written one post<\/a> about the knee pain. Reading it reminds me that my early trauma can trigger me into feeling more helpless than I am. After one week of feeling considerably better, I went back into serious pain, and it’s just gotten worse. I now have an appointment for a medical procedure that will hopefully take care of it.<\/p>\n

Dear Inner Teacher, I am really having a very hard time.\u00a0 <\/span>I am exhausted and discouraged.\u00a0 <\/span>I just want to quit.\u00a0 <\/span>Please help me.<\/p>\n

Dear Jenny, there are lots of beings who love you, even when you are so discouraged and exhausted you can\u2019t do the things you should do.\u00a0 <\/span>You are once again beyond the end of your resources.\u00a0 <\/span>Think of all the other people here at Kendal who are similarly discouraged and exhausted, and are unable to talk to anyone about it.\u00a0 <\/span>You need to forgive yourself for quitting.\u00a0 <\/span>What you are up against is huge, and compassion for yourself is appropriate.\u00a0 <\/span>You are angry at yourself for not making the appointment for the procedure sooner and asking a friend to drive you.\u00a0 <\/span>Jeanne said she would have.\u00a0 <\/span>You are back to your difficulty asking for help.\u00a0 <\/span>You also haven\u2019t asked your friends to walk Mocha again when it would help.\u00a0 <\/span>Dear Jenny, I can feel your resistance to having compassion for yourself.\u00a0 <\/span>You really are very angry at yourself for \u201cquitting.\u201d\u00a0 <\/span>Remember that you have quit before, and then after a day or several, found yourself picking up the task again.<\/p>\n

Me: You\u2019re right.\u00a0 <\/span>I really am very angry at myself.\u00a0 <\/span>And I really am refusing to ask for help when it would be appropriate.<\/p>\n

Teacher: Dear Jenny, this has been a difficulty for you all of your life.\u00a0 <\/span>Your parents made you wrong for asking for help<\/a>.\u00a0 <\/span>A few good experiences will not change that.\u00a0 <\/span>It\u2019s also true that because of the pain and exhaustion you have regressed, and the more adult behaviors are not available to you.<\/p>\n

Me: Well, I am softening a little.\u00a0 <\/span>Not quite ready to forgive myself.<\/p>\n

Teacher: Remember that we all forgive you, that the Great Being forgives you.\u00a0 <\/span>We all understand how hard it is to be human.<\/p>\n

Me: Thank You.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

After I wrote this, I went out with Mocha, my knee hurting, and met my friend Sharon. Bless her heart, she could see that I was in pain and she offered to take Mocha. Thank you, Universe, for the synchronicity.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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