From my journal for Saturday, May 13<\/p>\n
So much color in the world!\u00a0 <\/span>Flowering trees \u2014 dark pink flowers with dark red leaves, white flowers so thick they hide the leaves \u2014 alas I saw no bees today.\u00a0 <\/span>Tulips, so many varieties from the simple cup \u2014 two color, open with striped petals, double flowers.\u00a0 <\/span>Then all the wild things enriching the grass: dandelions, violets, lots of plants with a variety of foliage.\u00a0 <\/span>At the same time I\u2019m aware that the lack of bees is a disaster, that the overwhelming abundance of white flowers may signal a tree getting ready to die.\u00a0 <\/span>There are trees which have only a few wide open leaves and mostly bare branches. They have worried me.\u00a0 <\/span>Now it looks like they are filling out, but again I worry that the tree may be near its end.\u00a0 <\/span>I look at Mocha and know that she is on her way out, and feel how much I love her.\u00a0 <\/span>Saw the waning crescent without any trouble, I just looked up and there it was.\u00a0 <\/span>I feel like I am in the place Etty describes: Things are both very good and very bad at the same time.<\/p>\n Note: Etty Hillesum<\/a> is a Dutch Jew who died in Auschwitz in 1943. \u00a0Her complete journals and letters<\/a> were published in 2002. \u00a0The quote about good and bad is in a letter to a friend, An Interrupted Life<\/a>, p 254<\/p>\n Didn\u2019t say how odd I felt watching A Man Called Otto<\/a> in a friend’s apartment.\u00a0\u00a0<\/span>I was in her recliner and Mocha didn\u2019t come near me, ended up on the couch.\u00a0 <\/span>My friend was at her computer\u00a0playing a game.\u00a0 <\/span>I felt so strange.\u00a0 <\/span>Maybe a sense of a lot of beings in a room together and not connecting.\u00a0 <\/span>A sense of not being met.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" From my journal for Saturday, May 13 So much color in the world!\u00a0 Flowering trees \u2014 dark pink flowers with dark red leaves, white flowers so thick they hide the leaves \u2014 alas I saw no bees today.\u00a0 Tulips, so … Continue reading