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(Written in January 2005)
\nThe work I did with Brad was frustrating \u2014 I felt like I \u201chadn\u2019t gotten anywhere\u201d, but he thought it was good and when I told Eleanor, she thought it was good too.\u00a0 Basically I started to get comfortable, and when I got uncomfortable and wanted to move, Brad suggested I imagine moving and see what happened.\u00a0 Mostly, imagining was coming from my head.\u00a0 I would feel an ease of tension, and then it would tighten up again.\u00a0 Mostly in my neck & shoulders & jaw, also breathing.\u00a0 Brad said we were trying to let involuntary<\/em> things happen.\u00a0 I got a few little jerks in my shoulders and legs, but that was all.\u00a0 But I was able to get more comfortable with that awful state where I feel like I must do<\/em> something but don\u2019t know what to do and am waiting for some real impulse.\u00a0 At the end Brad said \u201cThe point is to learn how to live from the inside, not the outside.\u201d\u00a0 This makes sense of the body sensation where the tension is like skin, like long underwear that is too tight \u2014 something from outside preventing me from moving, in contrast to the one where I was stretching and could feel it in the muscles.<\/p>\n

(Written in February 2005)
\nGreat session with Brad.\u00a0 I put my hand to my neck again in that unconscious gesture so we spent some time with it.\u00a0 It does feel like some kind of self-comforting, self support.\u00a0 Then I had my hand on the left side of my neck and it began to feel like it was supporting my head.\u00a0 Then I wanted to lie down so I did, left side down \u2014 I managed to get the pillow right on the first try and then I just lay there getting more and more comfortable \u2014 it was WONDERFUL.\u00a0 It felt like layers and tiny pieces kept on settling and adjusting \u2014 I could feel little twitches, I also felt very rounded, like something melting or a bean bag sagging, could feel my rounded self sinking into the couch.\u00a0 I stayed like that, exploring, enjoying, for the rest of the session.\u00a0 I never got bored or felt stuck, there was always something happening.\u00a0 All the sounds became part of the tapestry \u2014 it was like a good meditation.\u00a0 Brad said instead of feeling invaded, I was able to be curious about them.\u00a0 Afterward my neck felt very relaxed.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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