Since the last post I went through a bad time, and then managed to find something that helped a lot.<\/p>\n
On May 17 I say “A level of despair that I have never felt before.\u00a0 <\/span>No energy at all for going on.\u00a0 <\/span>My heart aches.” \u00a0 and later: \u00a0“I\u2019m feeling a level of aloneness I\u2019ve never felt before.\u00a0 <\/span>Completely abandoned.\u00a0 <\/span>No help anywhere.\u00a0 <\/span>No companionship.” \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0May 18 \u00a0 \u00a0“I choose to trust that humanity will make the great transition to a mature sustainable planetary civilization.\u00a0 <\/span>I choose to trust that the wider, more inclusive, participatory, sacred cosmos is alive and intelligent and works through me\/us to create a better world for all.” \u00a0This is an attempt to help myself see that there is a possibility of something bigger. \u00a0 \u00a0May 19 \u00a0 I’m still struggling: “Feeling so lost and lonely.\u00a0 <\/span>Nothing I can hold on to.\u00a0 <\/span>No home, no belonging place.\u00a0 <\/span>No people who are my people.\u00a0 <\/span>I just want to curl up somewhere and be held and comforted. \u00a0I think I\u2019m suffering from intense grief and despair for the planet, and cognitive difficulties due to the social distancing and lack of activity because of COVID.”<\/p>\n May 20 was the day I found what I needed:\u00a0Humanity Rising<\/a> presented a talk on \u201cNatural Intelligence.\u201d I read the description and wasn\u2019t sure if I wanted to watch.\u00a0 <\/span>Talked to Erica about it. \u00a0 \u00a0 Here’s the description:<\/p>\n Humanity Rising Day 481 \u00a0 \u00a0\u00a0Natural Intelligence<\/p>\n How to create a world where we live life from a deep understanding of the operating system of humanity and see practical solutions to implement this knowledge into our own lives, organisations and societies at scale.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n On May 21 I watched the video<\/a> and made a single note: \u00a0“Natural Intelligence\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>Thoughts shape energy \u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>46 min. ” \u00a046 minutes so I could go back to that point.<\/p>\n May 22 \u00a0Things turn around:<\/p>\n I wake up about 4AM and then just lie there.\u00a0 <\/span>Not really thinking, but not sleeping either.\u00a0 <\/span>At least I\u2019m not feeling bummed out.\u00a0 <\/span>Jeddah Mali \u2014 I think she\u2019s in Brighton, England, and she doesn\u2019t look foreign \u2014 has restored to me the living, intelligent Universe.\u00a0 <\/span>What she says makes so much sense.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n I watch parts of it again over the next few days. \u00a0Finally made careful notes on May 25<\/p>\n Natural Intelligence: \u00a0 \u00a0\u00a046:00\u00a0 <\/span>Thought shapes energy.\u00a0 <\/span>The energy is very sensitive.\u00a0 <\/span>It can read frequency, our intention, it can read our underlying subconscious beliefs, our belief about how likely it is to happen, what we think that says about us.\u00a0 <\/span>Energy is so subtle, so nuanced, that it can express every aspect of our thought life. The way we treat our being is the way we treat life The sensation tells us what we are intending if we pay attention to it<\/span>. Since I don’t have much physical energy, and what I have gets spent in just trying to get through the day, I decided that I needed to work on the subtleties of my own thinking. \u00a0I need to work on changing my subconscious thinking which interferes with my ability to manifest what I really want. \u00a0I simply don’t have the physical energy to be an activist. \u00a0I signed up for the “Mapping App” which helps you see the details of how your mind \u2014 conscious and subconscious \u2014 is shaping energy.<\/p>\n Jeddah Mali’s website is Intelligent Life<\/a>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" Since the last post I went through a bad time, and then managed to find something that helped a lot. On May 17 I say “A level of despair that I have never felt before.\u00a0 No energy at all for … Continue reading
\nEnergy pattern forms a sensation in us
\nEnergy reorganizes our molecular structure in order to make the pattern felt.
\nIt wants to bring to our attention the way we\u2019re interacting with the fundamental\u00a0<\/span>energy of life.<\/p>\n
\nthe way we feel affects others<\/span>
\nindividual coherence begets group coherence begets social coherence begets…<\/p>\n
\nIt\u2019s asking\u00a0 <\/span>Is this what you want?
\nand we can decide yes or no.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n