(Written in January 2006)
\nLit a candle for spiritual help.\u00a0 I\u2019m feeling awful \u2014 I don\u2019t even know how to describe it.\u00a0 Sad, lost, bereft, worthless, meaningless.\u00a0 I feel like my life is going to go on like this \u2014 cycling between depression, fear, and sickness \u2014 for years, never getting better.\u00a0 I feel like I\u2019ve been floundering my whole life and never gotten anywhere, or even gained much wisdom and compassion.\u00a0 I feel so useless.\u00a0 and ashamed that it takes so many people – most of them therapists – to keep me functioning at all.\u00a0 That time last fall when I thought I was doing better seems like a mirage.<\/p>\n
Dear Spirits, I\u2019m feeling profoundly discouraged about my whole life.\u00a0 Please help me. I\u2019m trying to see the depression as some meaningful, transformative thing that\u2019s happening to me, and my job is not to fight it but to allow Spirit to do its thing.\u00a0 I don\u2019t feel any better but am more able to just be with how I am.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" (Written in January 2006) Lit a candle for spiritual help.\u00a0 I\u2019m feeling awful \u2014 I don\u2019t even know how to describe it.\u00a0 Sad, lost, bereft, worthless, meaningless.\u00a0 I feel like my life is going to go on like this \u2014 … Continue reading
\n Dear Jenny, you have been better before, and you will be better again.\u00a0 It doesn\u2019t matter that you don\u2019t know what to do.\u00a0 This is a process and it is going somewhere.\u00a0 Thomas Moore says a dark night of the soul is the night sea journey that arrives at a new place, the chrysalis from which the butterfly emerges.\u00a0 You don\u2019t know what work Spirit is doing in you.\u00a0 Patience. You are not alone.\u00a0 Surrender to the process and see where it takes you.\u00a0 Dear Jenny we love you.\u00a0 Know that this is all for a purpose, even tho you can\u2019t see it, that all things do work together for good, that you are a part of that working for good.\u00a0 All shall be well and all shall be well and all manner of thing shall be well.<\/em><\/p>\n