In yesterday’s post I notice the words “nothing”, underlined, and “annihilation.” \u00a0I’m simply unable to describe how it actually felt, and in fact, right now, I don’t remember how it felt. \u00a0Can’t recall it. \u00a0It’s such a total disappearance of “me.” \u00a0This is the experience of a baby, with undeveloped brain and nervous system, no concept of me, you, death or connection, feeling completely disappeared. \u00a0It used to include frozen terror, but that was before I knew what it was, knew that it was my experience as a baby left alone.<\/p>\n
This has also been described as a spiritual experience, but I think that that experience is nothing like mine. \u00a0The spiritual experience of losing “myself” \u2014 I believe \u2014 is one of realizing that you are much bigger and entirely different from who you thought yourself to be. \u00a0Also not experiencing yourself as alone, but instead as all there is.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
In yesterday’s post I notice the words “nothing”, underlined, and “annihilation.” \u00a0I’m simply unable to describe how it actually felt, and in fact, right now, I don’t remember how it felt. \u00a0Can’t recall it. \u00a0It’s such a total disappearance of … Continue reading