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\u201cA life initiation begins with a crisis that dissolves what you knew and what you were.\u00a0 <\/span>From the rubble of the ensuing collapse, a new self is born into a new world.\u201d \u00a0 \u00a0Charles Eisenstein<\/a><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

My first crisis happened when I was still a baby. \u00a0So there’s a way in which what’s happening now feels very familiar. \u00a0What’s new and strange is I don’t feel alone. \u00a0I feel solidarity with all the people on the planet earth. \u00a0We are truly all in this together.<\/p>\n

I continue to write in my journal, and I\u2019m typing up from February, a month ago.\u00a0 <\/span>Haven\u2019t mentioned COVID-19 yet.\u00a0 <\/span>As I type, I wonder why I\u2019m still doing it?\u00a0 <\/span>What does any of this mean?\u00a0 <\/span>The world (as we knew it) has ended.\u00a0 <\/span>I can\u2019t imagine any future in which anyone will be interested in my journal.\u00a0 <\/span>But I\u2019ve felt like that for a long time.\u00a0 <\/span>And I keep writing and keep typing it up.\u00a0 <\/span>Why?\u00a0 <\/span>It\u2019s as close as I\u2019ve got for a spiritual practice.\u00a0 <\/span>I\u2019ve been finding it hard to meditate, though I can stick with \u201cMay all beings be held in lovingkindness\u201d for a long time.\u00a0 <\/span>Because of the high probability of dissociating<\/a>, writing things down and typing them later helps them stay in my mind.\u00a0 <\/span>Posting something to this blog feels like standing alone at a vigil holding my sign.\u00a0 <\/span>I take my stand here, and I feel strong, standing in my truth.\u00a0 <\/span>Oddly, it doesn\u2019t matter if anyone reads it.\u00a0 <\/span>Though I have found that there\u2019s great value in reading things out loud to someone who I can count on to be non-judgmental.<\/p>\n

I looked for the story of standing alone at a vigil, thinking I had posted it, but didn’t find it. \u00a0I don’t remember which war it was. \u00a0I joined a vigil in front of the Post Office in Littleton. \u00a0I carried my sign saying “WAR IS NOT THE ANSWER.” \u00a0Our numbers gradually diminished. \u00a0The people who had been there with children left because we were being harassed. \u00a0Though I was surprised at the numbers who drove by and gave us a thumbs up. \u00a0One man came by and said in a low voice “I’m not brave enough to do this, but I’m glad you are.” \u00a0Finally there was just me and one older woman, a long-term peace activist. \u00a0She said she was going to a retirement community in Montpelier, so I knew I would be alone the following week. \u00a0I thought I would feel embarrassed, but when I got there and stood with my sign, I felt really strong and grounded, standing in my truth.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u201cA life initiation begins with a crisis that dissolves what you knew and what you were.\u00a0 From the rubble of the ensuing collapse, a new self is born into a new world.\u201d \u00a0 \u00a0Charles Eisenstein My first crisis happened when … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9,11,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-6541","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-journal","category-present-day","category-trauma"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6541","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=6541"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/6541\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=6541"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=6541"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=6541"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}