I’ve been reading my journal for last year and came across this piece. \u00a0It’s a possible way to understand why sometimes reassurance works right away, and sometimes it takes longer. \u00a0One thing I’ve suspected for a long time is that the earlier the trauma, the longer it takes for the brain to recover healthy self-regulation.<\/p>\n
From my journal for August 14, 2019<\/p>\n
I was thinking how Dulany tried to reassure me after we had got as far as we could dealing with the scam<\/a>.\u00a0 <\/span>But I did not reassure.\u00a0 <\/span>Sometimes I\u2019m able to feel better as soon as I\u2019ve done something successfully and sometimes I\u2019m not.\u00a0 <\/span>I go on feeling scared for several hours.\u00a0 <\/span>I\u2019m not at all sure why it works sometimes and why it doesn\u2019t.\u00a0 <\/span>I suspect it depends on how deep the trigger goes.\u00a0 <\/span>If it\u2019s very deep, then I think first the cognitive layer has to relax, and then that will help the next layer down to relax.\u00a0 <\/span>If it\u2019s very deep, it will take a long time for each layer to reassure the next, I suppose the younger layers may fall into a default of anger, making themselves or the younger layers wrong \u2014 I can see that it would be a complicated business.\u00a0 <\/span>Not possible to work on it cognitively.\u00a0 <\/span>I suppose one could do a voice or gestalt process, identifying each of the triggered ones and ask them what\u2019s going on.<\/p>\n
I was thinking I could try letting different little Jennys speak<\/a> as I did once before, but some part of me feels heavy \u2014 I want to do something else, something with color and shape, maybe a real puzzle.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n
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I’ve been reading my journal for last year and came across this piece. \u00a0It’s a possible way to understand why sometimes reassurance works right away, and sometimes it takes longer. \u00a0One thing I’ve suspected for a long time is that … Continue reading