{"id":6490,"date":"2020-02-24T07:47:51","date_gmt":"2020-02-24T12:47:51","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=6490"},"modified":"2020-02-24T07:47:51","modified_gmt":"2020-02-24T12:47:51","slug":"some-days-i-just-want-to-leave","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=6490","title":{"rendered":"Some Days I Just Want to Leave"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><span class=\"blast mmt-sentence\" aria-hidden=\"true\">From <a href=\"https:\/\/johnpavlovitz.com\/2020\/02\/20\/i-just-want-to-leave-this-world\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">John Pavlovitz&#8217;s Blog<\/a>:<\/span><\/p>\n<blockquote><p><span class=\"blast mmt-sentence\" aria-hidden=\"true\">Some days I just want to leave this world.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span class=\"blast mmt-sentence\" aria-hidden=\"true\">Living here much longer simply feels like an emotional impossibility lately.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span class=\"blast mmt-sentence\" aria-hidden=\"true\">The cruelty is too prevalent, the atrocities too pervasive, the fractures beyond repair.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span class=\"blast mmt-sentence\" aria-hidden=\"true\">It is an exercise in diminishing returns each morning, expending the necessary energy required to protect the fragile embers of hope still remaining within me, with so much threatening to snuff it out.<\/span> <span class=\"blast mmt-sentence\" aria-hidden=\"true\">It\u2019s difficult to breathe in this atmosphere, as if my chest can\u2019t fully expand and I feel myself slowly suffocating beneath the weight of how not-right it all is and how few people seem to notice.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span class=\"blast mmt-sentence\" aria-hidden=\"true\">Every day I do my best to gather my strength, redouble my resolve, and step out into the brokenness and enmity, bleeding heart affixed to my sleeve\u2014but a disorienting spiritual nausea soon grips me as I try and navigate the now wildly-shifting bedrock of what I once believed and the people I thought I knew and the home I imagined I had.<\/span> <span class=\"blast mmt-sentence\" aria-hidden=\"true\">No ground feels solid anymore.<\/span><\/p>\n<p><span class=\"blast mmt-sentence\" aria-hidden=\"true\">To be a deeply feeling person in a time when empathy has become a middle-index, partisan slur doesn\u2019t seem sustainable and neither does staying\u2014and today I just want to leave this world.<\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>This describes pretty exactly how I feel today. \u00a0He goes on to say that it is his sadness talking, and he still has hope. \u00a0It&#8217;s much harder for me to find hope. \u00a0But today, I find hope in Bernie&#8217;s successes in New Hampshire (I voted for him), Iowa, and Nevada. \u00a0He certainly didn&#8217;t win because he had money to spend. \u00a0He won despite all the money that bought ads to defeat him. Especially the ads that promote hate and fear on social media. \u00a0It isn&#8217;t just Bernie who is winning. \u00a0<a href=\"https:\/\/www.ourrevolution.com\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener noreferrer\">Our Revolution<\/a> is working to elect progressives in Congress, state and local governments. \u00a0Maybe the tide has turned. \u00a0The folks in the dirt, the roots of the grass, are waking up and finding that they are strong.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>From John Pavlovitz&#8217;s Blog: Some days I just want to leave this world. Living here much longer simply feels like an emotional impossibility lately. The cruelty is too prevalent, the atrocities too pervasive, the fractures beyond repair. 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