{"id":6180,"date":"2019-07-04T10:15:53","date_gmt":"2019-07-04T14:15:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=6180"},"modified":"2019-07-04T16:04:32","modified_gmt":"2019-07-04T20:04:32","slug":"ereshkigal-revisited","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=6180","title":{"rendered":"Ereshkigal Revisited"},"content":{"rendered":"

from my journal for June 6 \u00a0\u00a0<\/span><\/p>\n

I worked on two blog posts: \u201cProfessional Psychotherapy Client<\/a>\u201d and goodness beyond goodness<\/a>.\u00a0 <\/span>The first one was about how I had missed out on a lot of what life has to offer because of severe clinical depression, and because I put so much energy and time into trying to find out the truth about myself, and trying to heal.\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cTrying\u201d is the wrong word.\u00a0 <\/span>Continually finding new depths and dimensions of myself, of my life, and working on healing the early wounding.\u00a0 <\/span>I am coming to understand that people who can get what my life is about are few and far between.\u00a0 <\/span>Lynelle and Erica are the ones I\u2019m closest to.\u00a0 <\/span>And Karen.\u00a0 <\/span>And Jalaja \u2014 \u201cthe depths to which you are journeying.\u201d\u00a0 <\/span>I am also seeing that, even though people don\u2019t get it, and can\u2019t value it, my life\u2019s work has been a significant part of the larger \u2014 the huge \u2014 design.\u00a0 <\/span>In a traditional culture I would be valued as a shaman, one who has traveled into the depths of the human spirit.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Jalaja Bonheim<\/a>\u00a0 \u00a0 <\/span>The quote is from her comment<\/a> on my blog.<\/p>\n

In reading my blog, I came to the post about Ereshkigal.\u00a0 <\/span>It was first written during a guided meditation in 1993, and posted<\/a> to the blog in June of 2012, reposted in December 2018.\u00a0 <\/span>Looking at it yesterday, I saw a profound truth.\u00a0 <\/span>\u201cThis is what it costs\u201d \u2014 pain, and misunderstanding by people around you.\u00a0 <\/span>The reward is bringing truths back from the shamanic realm.\u00a0 <\/span>This is a worthy thing to be doing with my \u201cone wild and precious life.\u201d\u00a0 <\/span>I have been living a wild and precious life without knowing that\u2019s what it is.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Ereshkigal is the dark sister of Inanna<\/a>.\u00a0 <\/span>When Inanna \u201ccasts her ear to the Great Below<\/a>\u201d she begins her journey to the underworld.<\/p>\n

Doing Tong-len<\/a> for the earth.\u00a0 <\/span>That also is a worthy task.\u00a0 <\/span>What did Kevin say?\u00a0 <\/span>My life is a severe practice<\/a>.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Lately I have been feeling a lot of grief and pain for the Earth. \u00a0When I really got that my pain was not about me<\/a>, it was about the Earth, it became easy to do Tong-len for Her.<\/p>\n

Kevin Frank is an amazing bodyworker in Holderness, NH.\u00a0 His wife is Caryn McHose who was my trauma therapist for many years.\u00a0 They both work with the mind\/body interface.\u00a0 See their website<\/a>\u00a0for more information.<\/p>\n

3rd cup of tea.\u00a0 <\/span>I went back and read the first post about Ereshkigal<\/a>.\u00a0 <\/span>It sounds like I wrote it in my writers group in Franconia.\u00a0 <\/span>I went from there to \u201cabout Jenny<\/a>\u201d and then to the alternative version<\/a>.\u00a0 <\/span>A lot of the alternative version was written on a retreat with Deena Metzger in 1998<\/a>.\u00a0 <\/span>In some ways it\u2019s confusing to read because the time sequence isn\u2019t clear, but it also blew me away. blew me away<\/span>.\u00a0 <\/span>I can see the bones of the shaman shining through the rags of the writing, sometimes clumsy, sometimes brilliant.\u00a0 <\/span>What a wild, crazy, deep, astonishing life.\u00a0 <\/span>And I sleep-walked through it, bored, tired, unhappy, unable to see my journey underground as more than severe clinical depression, \u201churt too badly to live.\u201d\u00a0 <\/span>Unable to live a \u201cworthwhile\u201d life on the surface, and failing to see my exploration of the realm underneath as a valuable contribution to the Whole.\u00a0 <\/span>I did have a sense, earlier, when I tuned into the goodness beyond goodness and found affection\/love, that the political, social, environmental madness that\u2019s destroying the ground under our feet, is totally superficial, doesn\u2019t touch reality at all.\u00a0 <\/span>The people who are suffering are part of reality, part of the work of changing the \u2014 foundation? \u2014 reality? the work of changing reality, and their lives are not wasted.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Deena Metzger<\/a> is a novelist, poet, teacher and healer. \u00a0She is a magical person. \u00a0I have done several workshops and two week-long retreats with her<\/p>\n

“Hurt too badly to live” \u2014 The thing that scares me the most is that I will come across an animal who is “hurt too badly to live.” \u00a0What do I do? \u00a0I can’t heal it or help it, and I can’t kill it. \u00a0At some point I realized that, for a long time, I had felt that I had been “hurt too badly to live.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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