{"id":5972,"date":"2018-12-21T11:05:34","date_gmt":"2018-12-21T16:05:34","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=5972"},"modified":"2018-12-21T11:05:34","modified_gmt":"2018-12-21T16:05:34","slug":"past-terror","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=5972","title":{"rendered":"Past Terror"},"content":{"rendered":"

I posted a piece on a week of terror which happened in June & July, \u00a02016. \u00a0I think that was the last time I had that much terror. \u00a0Part of it was plans for going to California for a workshop on Grief<\/a> with Francis Weller. \u00a0The “Kim” who sounded drunk was my contact person at the Riverglen, which is independent and assisted living for seniors.<\/p>\n

Here is how it starts:<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve just been through a week of terror.\u00a0 Lots of possible triggers.\u00a0 I haven\u2019t had this bad a bout of terror for many years.<\/p>\n

Tuesday, June 28<\/p>\n

I\u2019m feeling terrified.\u00a0 I was reading Deborah Crombie and felt scared while I was reading.\u00a0 Kim left a message.\u00a0 She sounded a little drunk on the phone which was unnerving.\u00a0 I have to leave for St.J. to see Bess about Writing for Recovery<\/a> in 45 minutes.\u00a0 I set it up because Erica is out of town today.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

The Crombie<\/a> series is one I read over because I know it is safe.\u00a0 This is the last book.\u00a0 Not having something safe to read immediately can be a trigger.<\/p>\n

Wednesday, June 29<\/p>\n

The meeting with Bess was good.\u00a0 I was scared all the way over and for a little while after she\u2019d come, and then as we talked I started to feel better.\u00a0 The work sounds fascinating.\u00a0 Bess is currently teaching the workshop at the Recovery Center in St. J.\u00a0 It\u2019s Wednesday night, and she has just started, so I\u2019m going to go tonight.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

One good reason for reading past posts is that sometimes I feel like I haven’t gotten anywhere in all these years, but sometimes, like with this one, I can see how far I’ve come. \u00a0If you want to read the rest of the post.<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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