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This was originally written in 1993. \u00a0I posted<\/a> it to this blog on June 30, 2012. \u00a0I have recently been going back and reading old posts, and mostly liking them very much. \u00a0I do this randomly, or start from a particular post and go to the posts before or after it. \u00a0I have caught some things that were obvious to me at the time of writing, but that I can now see might be confusing to the reader. \u00a0The conditions under which this was written are in the original post. \u00a0It’s a conversation between me and Ereshkigal<\/a>, Sumerian Goddess of the Underworld. \u00a0I only quote the last part of it here. \u00a0It resonated very strongly with my present struggle between allowing myself to rest, and pushing myself to do what I “should.”<\/p>\n

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No, Damn, I\u2019m willing to listen, but this all sounds like the most godawful platitudes.\u00a0 I know the pain and rage of the buried sister.\u00a0 Surely there\u2019s something more here, something I\u2019m missing.\u00a0 What do you really have to say to me?
\n\u2014Something about the power of anger, how to use it correctly, how to burn up what should be burned.\u00a0 You were angry at your friend today for whining.\u00a0 Correct use, correct use.\u00a0 \u201cThat\u2019s what it costs\u201d you said.\u00a0 That\u2019s what I say to you, that\u2019s what it costs, that\u2019s what it costs to live.\u00a0 It\u2019s hard to be yourself, to really be authentic, to stand for yourself against all the pressures telling you that you\u2019re wrong, crazy, isolated, sinful, selfish.\u00a0 Selfish, by god \u2014 yes I say be selfish, be authentic self.\u00a0 Jesus didn\u2019t die on the cross so you could be Jesus-clone, he died so you could be Jenny.\u00a0 You must pay the price to be Jenny.\u00a0 The price is poor health and lack of understanding from society, the price is that many people will not notice you, and many others will be threatened, still others will be jealous and try to tear you down.\u00a0 The reward is great depth of perception, great power in expressing what you see, and the glorious moments of bringing through a truth from the shamanic world.\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 The price is self-doubt, and conflict, a struggle to keep your balance among the great spinning wheels, constant effort to see truly, rejection of easy answers.\u00a0 The reward is the satisfaction of encountering truth: bone-hard, bone-deep.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<\/div>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This was originally written in 1993. \u00a0I posted it to this blog on June 30, 2012. \u00a0I have recently been going back and reading old posts, and mostly liking them very much. \u00a0I do this randomly, or start from a … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[14,4,21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5961","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-spirit","category-trauma","category-writing"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5961","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5961"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5961\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5961"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5961"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5961"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}