{"id":5767,"date":"2018-06-11T11:57:08","date_gmt":"2018-06-11T15:57:08","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=5767"},"modified":"2018-07-09T10:21:54","modified_gmt":"2018-07-09T14:21:54","slug":"identity-confusion-conflict-for-lack-of-a-better-title","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=5767","title":{"rendered":"Identity Confusion\/Conflict (for lack of a better title)"},"content":{"rendered":"<blockquote><p>Friday, June 8<\/p>\n<p>Don\u2019t know how to start.\u00a0 So odd.\u00a0 I read what I wrote down that Elizabeth said in our phone conversation \u2014 \u201cIdentity in flux\u201d \u2014 yes that\u2019s exactly my experience.<\/p>\n<p>\u201cAttachment repair\u201d \u2014 homies seeking to \u201cre-identify\u201d\u00a0 <a href=\"http:\/\/www.simonandschuster.com\/books\/Barking-to-the-Choir\/Gregory-Boyle\/9781476726151\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Barking to the Choir<\/a> p16\u00a0 Find identity through someone who loves you, not someone who is jealous and threatened and projecting self-hate.<\/p>\n<p>Saturday, June 9<\/p>\n<p>Very intense session with Erica.\u00a0 I read her the two blog entries about \u201cwild and precious life.\u201d \u00a0(<a href=\"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=3700\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">April 2013<\/a>, <a href=\"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=641\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">August 2010<\/a>) \u00a0I cried as I read.\u00a0 There was also a quote from Father Greg about the homies needing to \u201cre-identify\u201d as the repair for the attachment wound.\u00a0 I see that I am struggling to replace the felt sense of myself as someone selfish, unkind, rigidly virtuous, with a felt sense of myself as someone worthwhile, with something to give to others.\u00a0 \u201cI have fought like a demon against oppression.\u201d<\/p>\n<p>Had a very different experience at dinner.\u00a0 I sat at the long table.\u00a0 I think D has had to go to the health center \u2014 he\u2019s had too many falls, and his mind isn\u2019t quite right.\u00a0 For me, that lifts a blight. \u00a0He made lots of negative comments. \u00a0I sat next to Sabra and across from Margaret and Lorraine.\u00a0 I think because my spirits had been so lifted by the <a href=\"https:\/\/en.wikipedia.org\/wiki\/Narrative_medicine\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">narrative medicine<\/a> class, and the talk with Erica, I was able to converse easily and even contribute.\u00a0 I talked about the class, and also \u2014 I don\u2019t remember exactly how we got to it \u2014 Lorraine had said something about how the teacher was important, and I started talking about Miss Hill, and assumptions, and cosmology.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Note: Father Greg Boyle wrote <a href=\"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=4591\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Tattoos on the Heart<\/a>, about his work with gang members in Los Angeles.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Friday, June 8 Don\u2019t know how to start.\u00a0 So odd.\u00a0 I read what I wrote down that Elizabeth said in our phone conversation \u2014 \u201cIdentity in flux\u201d \u2014 yes that\u2019s exactly my experience. \u201cAttachment repair\u201d \u2014 homies seeking to \u201cre-identify\u201d\u00a0 &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=5767\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10,5,9,11,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5767","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-breakdown","category-healing","category-journal","category-present-day","category-trauma"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5767","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5767"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5767\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5767"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5767"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5767"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}