{"id":5757,"date":"2018-05-23T20:55:20","date_gmt":"2018-05-24T00:55:20","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=5757"},"modified":"2018-05-23T20:55:20","modified_gmt":"2018-05-24T00:55:20","slug":"journey","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=5757","title":{"rendered":"Journey"},"content":{"rendered":"

This was written 10 days after I sprained my ankle on April 14.\u00a0 Initially I wasn\u2019t able to walk very far.\u00a0 The walk to the dining room can take 7 minutes.\u00a0 Not possible in my disabled condition.\u00a0 Fortunately, I can get supper delivered.\u00a0 At first I could hardly stand long enough in the kitchen to cook, but that got better pretty quickly.\u00a0 It is a long walk plus two elevator rides (and I am so GLAD for all the elevators!)\u00a0 In fact I\u2019m pretty spoiled here.\u00a0 The fall also made it impossible to get to the Neskaya Conference<\/a>, a big event that I had been looking forward and worrying about for quite a while.<\/p>\n

So I had felt like I was moving along fine, and then suddenly hit a brick wall.\u00a0 This made me question why it happened \u2014 not because I was stupid, not because God had it in for me, not even because it was a random event \u2014 it seemed pretty clear that I was supposed to learn something from this experience.<\/p>\n

This journal entry is an attempt to explore what possible meaning there might be in being immobilized for a time.<\/p>\n

Journey.\u00a0 I\u2019m thinking that it will be a long journey to the top of the waterfall stairs and the elevator to the ground floor, then to the massage room.\u00a0 The word \u201cjourney\u201d resonates.\u00a0 I set out on this long journey, and suddenly got stopped and immobilized.\u00a0 Where am I going and why?\u00a0 What\u2019s really important?\u00a0 What matters to me?\u00a0 \u201cFor a great journey on the drawing tide.\u201d\u00a0 It makes me think of the Cadfael book, and the crusader whose last journey is up the river a short way, having to be carried, then rowed in a boat.\u00a0 The \u201cgreat journey\u201d was Jenny going to Europe, then to California, back to Maine, crossing the country by car more than once.\u00a0 More than one journey\/pilgrimage to Callanish.\u00a0 The summer I did both a Deena Metzger retreat and the Circlework training, and was so disabled by PTSD terror that I couldn\u2019t get what was available.\u00a0 That\u2019s actually been true my whole life.\u00a0 So disabled by early wounding that I couldn\u2019t get what was available.\u00a0 \u201cCuncti simus concanente…\u201d\u00a0 But I did build Neskaya.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

The “Waterfall staircase” is a long staircase at Kendal that takes you from the living floors to the community area.<\/p>\n

“Massage” \u2014 having a massage every week is part of my healing from trauma, since trauma is held in the tissues.<\/p>\n

\u201c…journey on the drawing tide\u201d is from a poem by David Whyte<\/a><\/p>\n

“Cadfael book” is “An Excellent Mystery<\/a>” by Ellis Peters<\/p>\n

Callanish<\/a> is a stone circle on the Island of Lewis in the Outer Hebrides<\/p>\n

Deena Metzger<\/a> is a writer, her book that meant the most to me is called \u201cWriting for your Life.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cCirclework<\/a>\u201d was developed by Jalaja Bonheim<\/p>\n

\u201cCuncti simus concanentes…\u201d means \u201cHere we come singing..\u201d and is the music for a circle dance called \u201cThe Pilgrims\u2019 Dance<\/a>.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This was written 10 days after I sprained my ankle on April 14.\u00a0 Initially I wasn\u2019t able to walk very far.\u00a0 The walk to the dining room can take 7 minutes.\u00a0 Not possible in my disabled condition.\u00a0 Fortunately, I can … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9,11,20],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5757","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-journal","category-present-day","category-vocation"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5757","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5757"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5757\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5757"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5757"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5757"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}