{"id":5165,"date":"2016-05-23T10:12:18","date_gmt":"2016-05-23T14:12:18","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=5165"},"modified":"2016-05-23T10:12:18","modified_gmt":"2016-05-23T14:12:18","slug":"grief-and-praise","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=5165","title":{"rendered":"Grief and Praise"},"content":{"rendered":"

I have been listening to a talk by Martin Prechtel<\/a>, a shaman from South America.\u00a0 He talks about how grief for something comes because it meant a lot to you, so grief is a form of praise or of gratitude.\u00a0 I am finding this very difficult.\u00a0 After my initial joy of feeling like I wasn\u2019t alone<\/a> in grief and anger for how humans are destroying our life support system on Planet Earth, I fell down into a place I know well as depression, but then I realized that is really\u00a0grief for what is happening to our home.\u00a0 Suddenly it wasn\u2019t just grief for what happened to me, but grief for the whole planet.\u00a0 I have let myself grieve, with many tears and cries of pain and rocking back and forth, in two therapy sessions this week and found to my surprise that I recovered my ability to see the beauty of the world, which I have not been able to see for I don\u2019t know how long.<\/p>\n

People talk about the \u201cgift of life\u201d and it always makes me feel angry and sad.\u00a0 To me it feels like the \u201cgift\u201d was smashed before I got it.\u00a0 It\u2019s true that when I was younger I had wonderful ecstatic moments out in the woods, by the ocean, in Yosemite Valley, and in many other places in Nature.\u00a0 But by the time I returned to New England after being defeated too many times in my efforts to find a good relationship, I found myself in a severe depression, and never came out of it until I was on medication that worked.\u00a0 At which time I realized that I had been severely depressed all my life.<\/p>\n

Getting on Medication<\/a><\/p><\/blockquote>\n