{"id":4922,"date":"2015-11-18T09:56:53","date_gmt":"2015-11-18T14:56:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=4922"},"modified":"2015-11-18T16:51:02","modified_gmt":"2015-11-18T21:51:02","slug":"refuge","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=4922","title":{"rendered":"Refuge"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Reading \u201c<a href=\"http:\/\/www.goodreads.com\/book\/show\/6332280-necessary-as-blood\" target=\"_blank\">Necessary as Blood<\/a>.\u201d\u00a0 Reading doesn\u2019t seem to help, I still feel the cold weight in my chest.<\/p>\n<blockquote><p>\u201c&#8230; home to me was certainly never anything remotely material.\u00a0 It consisted, I have decided, in something I sensed as refuge: an atmosphere of safety in the love between my parents.\u00a0 It came in a tone of voice, in the preparation and eating of meals, in conversations during washing up and being busy in the garden.\u201d \u00a0 \u2014 Dennis Severs, 18 Folgate Street.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n<p>Quoted as a chapter heading in Necessary as Blood p203<\/p>\n<p>It hurt to read that.\u00a0 I realized how much was not there in my childhood.\u00a0 No wonder I\u2019m still searching for refuge.\u00a0 Lynelle said yesterday, trying to make me feel better, \u201cLook how much farther you have got than your parents did.\u201d\u00a0 I think of the woman at the UU when I spoke about Journey into Courage.\u00a0 She was a therapist and she said, \u201cWhat you have done is <span style=\"text-decoration: underline;\">huge<\/span>.\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Reading \u201cNecessary as Blood.\u201d\u00a0 Reading doesn\u2019t seem to help, I still feel the cold weight in my chest. \u201c&#8230; home to me was certainly never anything remotely material.\u00a0 It consisted, I have decided, in something I sensed as refuge: an &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=4922\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[11,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4922","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-present-day","category-trauma"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4922","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4922"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4922\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4922"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4922"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4922"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}