{"id":4715,"date":"2015-05-08T20:05:30","date_gmt":"2015-05-09T00:05:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=4715"},"modified":"2015-05-08T20:05:30","modified_gmt":"2015-05-09T00:05:30","slug":"red-woman","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=4715","title":{"rendered":"Red Woman"},"content":{"rendered":"

I’ve written about the “Red Woman” many times, she’s described in the page about my paintings<\/a>, but I’ve never actually told the full story.<\/p>\n

Kripalu for Women & Yoga
\nWritten October 31, 1989<\/p>\n

During body work with Debra, I was telling her about Samhain, and she said people here would be interested in the sacred calendar.\u00a0 She suggested that I come and do a workshop for the sisters, and I was so grateful at the thought that they might want me, that something\/someone woke up in me.\u00a0 Feeling the new energy in the room, Debra said “Who’s that?” but I didn’t know, I only had a sense of huge red wings.<\/p>\n

Thinking about having this person wake up in me.\u00a0 She is both me and not me, she is huge, she is a flame, a fountain, she has wings, and my life is dedicated to her service.\u00a0 Is she my soul? God?\u00a0 She seems much bigger than I ever imagined my soul to be, and at the same time she is much more personal and unique to me than I could ever imagine God.<\/p>\n

I had thought that the only way I could have “chosen” to be abused would be if I did it to end the long chain of abuse handed down from parent to child.\u00a0 That seemed too noble a motive for the person I believed myself to be.\u00a0 Then I began to suspect that I had done it to help heal the earth.\u00a0 It occurred to me that if this incarnation was for the purpose of taking the pain of the abused earth into my body and healing it there, that is a choice that I myself am too limited and selfish to make.\u00a0 But the Goddess who is me and not me is big enough and compassionate enough to make that choice, and I am humbly grateful to be her instrument.<\/p>\n

The work that we do together is the geomantic healing of the planet earth.\u00a0 I know the timing of the festivals and the steps of the dances, and the placement of the stones.\u00a0 And I am part of that company of human beings who have chosen to take the abuse of the planet into our own bodies and heal it there.\u00a0 Such a feeling of stepping into my heritage, little things making sudden sense, all the pieces of my life falling into place.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

At that time I still had no idea that I was dealing with PTSD.\u00a0 Once I was able to accept that I had been traumatized in infancy, I realized that trauma is a shamanic initiation.<\/p>\n

It wasn’t until 1998 that I painted the “Red Woman”<\/a> at Aviva Gold’s “Painting from the Source<\/a>.” \u00a0It was a long time before I connected the two.<\/p>\n

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