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<\/a><\/p>\nDialog with Baby Jenny about getting Damien:<\/p>\n
How are you doing?<\/p>\n
I\u2019m a little worried and scared.\u00a0 All your energy is going toward the dog.<\/i><\/p>\n
That\u2019s true.\u00a0 I\u2019m sorry.\u00a0 Let me make the effort to come to you, because I do care about you, and you are number one in my heart.<\/p>\n
Better than Lynelle?<\/i><\/p>\n
Yes.<\/p>\n
better than Beverly?<\/i><\/p>\n
Yes.\u00a0 I apologize that I have a long old habit of turning away from you, not wanting to feel your pain, not valuing you as my mother didn’t value me.\u00a0 But I have learned to value you, and care about you, and I’m glad you\u2019re in my life.\u00a0 And we have help because Erica loves both of us.\u00a0 I do love you.\u00a0 You are creative and generous and loving.\u00a0 You began to doubt these things because your mother couldn\u2019t receive them, or even trivialized them. \u00a0You deserved better than that.<\/p>\n
I did?<\/i><\/p>\n
YES.\u00a0 And it wasn\u2019t your fault that she treated you that way.\u00a0 She was an alcoholic, and a narcissist, and probably depressed, and she couldn\u2019t respond to you.\u00a0 Now you have Erica who responds with enthusiasm.\u00a0 I know you don\u2019t quite trust her yet, but I do.\u00a0 I will hold you and keep you safe until you can trust her too.<\/p>\n
I think the thing I\u2019m most scared about is I will meet Damien and not want him.\u00a0 Or I will meet him and just not know.<\/p>\n
What do you think Baby Jenny?<\/p>\n
I feel more comfortable with Damien because he\u2019s scared.\u00a0 I know all about being scared.\u00a0 I think if you got a dog who was big and affectionate, that I\u2019d feel scared that you\u2019d love him better than me.<\/i><\/p>\n
Thank you, Baby Jenny.\u00a0 What do you need now?<\/p>\n
A cuddle.<\/i><\/p>\n
So we cuddled for a while with Muffy.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I am thinking about getting a rescue dog.\u00a0 He was in a situation where the owner had more dogs than they could care for.\u00a0 He probably wasn\u2019t let out of his crate very often.\u00a0 He isn\u2019t house trained and is … Continue reading