{"id":4438,"date":"2014-10-18T11:30:27","date_gmt":"2014-10-18T15:30:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=4438"},"modified":"2014-10-18T11:30:27","modified_gmt":"2014-10-18T15:30:27","slug":"writing-the-real-story","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=4438","title":{"rendered":"Writing the Real Story"},"content":{"rendered":"

I\u2019ve been rereading Writing for Your Life<\/a>, and I wanted to find some things I had written, either inspired by the book or written in workshops with Deena.\u00a0 I went looking for the material and have already posted some of it.<\/p>\n

Written this morning:<\/p>\n

That was exciting, to find the material from the Deena Workshops and Retreats.\u00a0 Rereading Writing for Your Life opened up something, a desire to write that way again and a fear that I can\u2019t do that anymore.\u00a0 I posted the 5-minute autobiographies.\u00a0 I read through all I had written.\u00a0 There were several pieces on a page I had apparently given to Deena.\u00a0 I read through part of the booklet of writings of participants in the week-long retreat at Martha\u2019s Vineyard.\u00a0 It was overwhelming.\u00a0 God bless Lynelle, she helped me see the connection between the headache, which started as I was reading, and excitement and fear about the writing.\u00a0 When I started talking about the writing, the headache began to fade.\u00a0 I also read her the 5-minute autobiographies.\u00a0 She thought they were powerful.<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve been feeling stifled and frustrated that I haven\u2019t been able to even get up into my studio and think\/imagine about painting.\u00a0 I\u2019ve lately done only a little bit of work on my box of stories.\u00a0 I did start the clay project, but there\u2019s more work there before I can begin making figures.<\/p>\n

Last night, Lynelle asked for my feelings to see if there was a homeopathic remedy for the headache.\u00a0 I said \u201cExploding\u201d and then saw the image I\u2019d seen\u00a0before after some work with Erica \u2014 maybe I should paint it! \u2014 an image of multicolored stuff pushing upward and starting to open, a little like a plant or a flower except that the pieces were all squashed together.\u00a0 There was a sense that they had been cut up, cut off, cut down! pressed together \u2014 yes, there was trying to hide them, cut them off, push them down \u2014 and now they are getting out, the genie is getting out of the bottle, the baby is waking up and she\u2019s too big for the box they tried to put her in.<\/p>\n

Deena talks about writing the story under the story, the real<\/span> story, not the one we tell ourselves, or others tell about us.\u00a0 In the 3 autobiographies I see this progression.\u00a0 The surface story has changed, there\u2019s pain there now because we got divorced a few years later, and I thought he would still be my friend but he just cut me off.\u00a0 That was more painful than the divorce.<\/p>\n

The third piece clearly speaks to the PTSD I didn\u2019t know about yet, volcanoes and bitter craters.\u00a0 Trees won\u2019t grow here for a while yet \u2014 because the hard volcanic rock has to be broken up, broken down, aged and weathered, eaten by lichen, pierced by roots, and finally, ages and ages hence, become soil that can support a plant as big as a tree.\u00a0 I\u2019ve been told that volcanic soil is very fertile.<\/p>\n

Other writings from a similar source:
\nAwakening Kali<\/a>
\nThe Truth Express<\/a>
\nEreshkigal<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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