{"id":4137,"date":"2014-02-15T10:00:42","date_gmt":"2014-02-15T15:00:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=4137"},"modified":"2014-02-15T10:00:42","modified_gmt":"2014-02-15T15:00:42","slug":"waiting","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=4137","title":{"rendered":"Waiting"},"content":{"rendered":"

Since I’ve been essentially trying to let go of “false urgency” (which is a consequence of trauma) and learning to wait in silence, I went back to reread Sue Monk Kidd<\/a> on waiting. \u00a0from When the Heart Waits<\/a><\/p>\n

\u201cReferring to the [inner] Guide, Thomas Merton said \u2018We don\u2019t have to rush after it.\u00a0 It was there all the time, and if we give it time, it will make itself known to us.\u2019\u201d \u00a0 p124<\/p>\n

\u2018Bernanos \u201cGrace is everywhere.\u201d\u00a0 The statement appalls me at times.\u00a0 But then so many things about God appall me.\u00a0 The immense, unreasonable love for us, the outrageous insistence that in the weak and broken there is divine Presence, the indomitable faith in us as children of hope, to mention a few.\u2019\u00a0 p124-5<\/p>\n

\u201cTo take upon ourselves the posture of sitting while Jesus prays brings us into the most grace-ful mystery of the waiting experience that there is: that of opening to the intimate presence of the Spirit praying within, penetrating, speaking, and holding us in our darkness.<\/p>\n

\u201cAgain the emphasis isn\u2019t on what we\u2019re doing but on what God is doing.\u00a0 Ultimately we don\u2019t heal, transform or create ourselves.\u00a0 We posture ourselves in ways that allow God to heal, transform and create us.\u00a0 The posture of sitting while Jesus prays reminds us that the Spirit is active and speaking.\u00a0 Our part is to learn to sit, yielding to God\u2019s activity in us, opening ourselves to divine prayer, listening to the silent words.\u201d\u00a0 \u00a0 p136<\/p>\n

\u201cHesychasm [Greek for \u201crest\u201d and \u201cprayer\u201d] was a way of unceasing prayer in which a person descended into the heart and built a nest for herself and God, a place where she rested in the divine Presence, staying there throughout her day, throughout her pain, conflict, and struggle.<\/p>\n

\u201cTo sit while Jesus prays brings us to this kind of nesting in the heart.\u00a0 It allows us a replenishing rest in which we can be still and listen to the prayers and words that the Spirit whispers inside us.\u201d\u00a0 \u00a0 \u00a0 p137<\/p>\n

\u201cJulian of Norwich wrote that our wounds<\/i> become the womb<\/i>.\u00a0 This touching image points us to the awareness that transformation hinges on our ability to turn our pain (the tomb) into a fertile place where life is birthed (the womb).<\/p>\n

\u201c\u2026 the actual groping and searching is the way our deeper self evolves and is released.\u201d \u00a0 p159<\/p>\n

Father Sylvan:\u00a0 \u201cIt is through the medium of total self-inquiry that the forces of good and evil can meet and be reconciled within us.\u201d\u00a0 \u00a0 p159<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

Thinking of god in a nest in my heart brought the most extraordinary experience of loving god.\u00a0 I have never felt that before.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Since I’ve been essentially trying to let go of “false urgency” (which is a consequence of trauma) and learning to wait in silence, I went back to reread Sue Monk Kidd on waiting. \u00a0from When the Heart Waits \u201cReferring to … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5,14,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4137","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-healing","category-spirit","category-trauma"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4137","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=4137"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4137\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=4137"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=4137"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=4137"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}