Of course, I wasn’t able to stay in my wonderful, comfortable state of feeling like I belonged on the planet earth, and everything I was doing was what I was meant to do. \u00a0I got triggered, more than once, and by Sunday January 26 I was back to feeling “scared and sad.” \u00a0I’ve actually been in much worse states of scared and sad \u2014 states of terror and despair \u2014 but this felt really awful coming after feeling so good.<\/p>\n
(Written December 27, 2013)
\nI\u2019ve been having trouble understanding how I could work so hard for so long, have done so many things right, and still keep falling into depression and terror.\u00a0 I opened Fox\u2019s Power Through Constructive Thinking to a story about Dick Whittington \u2014 god clearly directed my fingers \u2014 because there was an explanation:<\/p>\n
\u201cThe children of this world \u2026 are well adapted to worldly conditions, and, if they are reasonably sensible folk, they get on well enough with the world as it is.\u00a0 Those, however, who have developed and brought into manifestation<\/i> the spiritual faculty are of another order.\u00a0 \u2026 they can no longer live \u2026 in the pagan atmosphere of Mammon\u2026<\/p>\n
\u201cA transition stage, when the spiritual faculty had been developed, but is \u2026 not yet born onto the plane of manifestation: and this is the stage where so much trouble appears.\u00a0 In this stage, your spiritual faculty \u2026 is mature enough to have unfitted you for the atmosphere of the world, but it is not mature enough to take charge of and manage your affairs in the light of the Spirit.\u00a0 And now you are likely to have a bad time.\u00a0 Because you do not belong to the world, it will kick you about like a football, and the harder you struggle, the worse will things get.\u00a0 This, nevertheless, is the time to rejoice and lift up your heart, for now, if you are faithful, your salvation is very nigh.\u00a0 These hard knocks are the indication that you are no longer in bondage to material law.\u201d\u00a0 pp152-3<\/p>\n
I love the world and I want what\u2019s best for it.\u00a0 Please, god, remove from me everything that gets in the way of me healing and hearing your will and doing it in the world.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Of course, I wasn’t able to stay in my wonderful, comfortable state of feeling like I belonged on the planet earth, and everything I was doing was what I was meant to do. \u00a0I got triggered, more than once, and … Continue reading