{"id":396,"date":"2010-05-14T17:28:15","date_gmt":"2010-05-14T17:28:15","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=396"},"modified":"2010-05-14T17:29:13","modified_gmt":"2010-05-14T17:29:13","slug":"self-care","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=396","title":{"rendered":"Self-care"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>(Written in June 2004)<br \/>\nWorkshop question: what helps you be present to yourself.\u00a0 I need space and time and permission \u2014 <em>more<\/em> than permission, I need to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this is the <em>right<\/em> thing to do, the divinely commanded thing to do, what\u2019s in alignment with Universal Purpose \u2014\u00a0\u00a0 It\u2019s amazing how deeply I feel inside myself that it\u2019s <em>morally wrong<\/em> for me to pay that much attention to myself.\u00a0 It makes me wonder if I\u2019ve spent lifetimes as a monk or a nun, being selfless, devoting my life to others, but out of intellectual conviction rather than great love.\u00a0 So this lifetime was designed so I\u2019d have to see the degree to which my \u201cselfless\u201d behavior was conditioned, not genuine??\u00a0 Maybe?<br \/>\nI suppose it doesn\u2019t matter.\u00a0 It\u2019s clear to me at this point that I have got to put self-care first, despite my total resistance to this idea.\u00a0 I can\u2019t blame Mom for this any more, I have to take responsibility for buying into it.\u00a0 I want to change it, but I sure don\u2019t know how to.\u00a0 Create a vision: I want to take care of myself the way that a great musician takes care of his precious instrument.\u00a0 Not for the sake of the instrument, but for the sake of the music.\u00a0 Great Ones, divine beings, Buddhas and Bodhisattvas, please help me.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>(Written in June 2004) Workshop question: what helps you be present to yourself.\u00a0 I need space and time and permission \u2014 more than permission, I need to know beyond a shadow of a doubt that this is the right thing &hellip; <a href=\"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=396\">Continue reading <span class=\"meta-nav\">&rarr;<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-396","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-depression"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/396","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=396"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/396\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=396"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=396"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=396"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}