Written in July 2009<\/p>\n
I can\u2019t remember the session with Caryn very well.\u00a0 I went back to my corner and told her how I had gotten \u201ctoo big\u201d and needed to pull back.\u00a0 I had brought the doll I had made and I held her and cried a lot.\u00a0 Caryn said something about the physiology of grief, how it helped disconnect things in the brain.\u00a0 I did some subtle discharge, and she gave me detailed feedback.\u00a0 I said how meaningful had been her image of the chord, feeling several feelings at once, and told her how I had been able to have both my sadness and the beauty of the day.\u00a0 She said I was widening the banks of consciousness to include more life energy.\u00a0 Even when I don\u2019t fully understand what she\u2019s saying, I think her feedback is giving me the kind of mirroring I didn\u2019t get in childhood.\u00a0 I told her how I had healed from the airplane phobia<\/a>, and then cried and mourned for the 14 years in bondage to fear of planes and airports.\u00a0 So much life wasted.\u00a0 At one point, I don\u2019t know why the thought came to me, maybe it was the memory of Deena saying the greatest Bodhisattvas are found in the deepest hells, I thought that if I were a Bodhisattva who had chosen this lifetime for the purpose of healing, then I wouldn\u2019t feel that it had been wasted at all.\u00a0 I told Caryn about the exercise with Deena and how when I heard the call to return to earth, my heart went out to the blue-green planet \u2014 Oh! Earth! \u2014 and I stood right up, ready to go back.\u00a0 O my.\u00a0 If that were true.\u00a0 I sit here feeling a kind of amazed joy. \u00a0 Caryn said I embodied compassion \u2014 I said \u201cto be the change you want to see in the world.\u201d<\/p>\n The Bodhisattva Vow is to keep returning to life on earth until all living beings are enlightened.<\/p>\n Written in July 2009 I can\u2019t remember the session with Caryn very well.\u00a0 I went back to my corner and told her how I had gotten \u201ctoo big\u201d and needed to pull back.\u00a0 I had brought the doll I had … Continue reading