{"id":3581,"date":"2013-02-28T11:58:35","date_gmt":"2013-02-28T16:58:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=3581"},"modified":"2019-05-02T09:38:11","modified_gmt":"2019-05-02T13:38:11","slug":"how-i-got-to-stonehenge-again","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=3581","title":{"rendered":"How I Got to Stonehenge Again"},"content":{"rendered":"

I was in my thirties.\u00a0 It didn\u2019t look like I was going to get married, and I wanted to settle down in Brunswick, Maine, where I had some friends.\u00a0 I\u2019m lucky enough to be able to live on the money I inherited from my family, so I bought a house, but didn\u2019t have to have a job.\u00a0 The usual struggle with depression and anxiety led me to join a therapy group.\u00a0 I had decided that I wanted to be using my intellect, so I thought of going back to school and getting a PhD in Geology.\u00a0 While I was still in California, I had seen a map of the state with many areas in the Sierra Nevada marked \u201cunmapped.\u201d\u00a0 I had a fantasy of hiring a mule and going into the backcountry to map the strata.\u00a0 In group I had been talking about how I wanted to register for a geology course at Bowdoin College, and that I didn\u2019t seem to be able to get over there.\u00a0 Someone asked what was holding me back, and this sentence came out of my mouth:\u00a0 \u201cIf I actualize myself as a professional scientist, I will be so threatening that no man will marry me and my life would be wasted.\u201d\u00a0 Wow.\u00a0 Essentially I was saying \u201cIf I actualize myself….\u00a0 my life will be wasted.\u201d\u00a0 I went to the college the next day and registered for Geomorphology \u2014 the science of how the landscape gets shaped.\u00a0 The artist in me found it fascinating.
\nOne day, at the library, checking out the geology books I moved on down the shelves and found books on Archeology.\u00a0 I saw a big tome, Aubrey Burl\u2019s classic \u201cRude Stone Monuments in Britain.\u201d\u00a0 I pulled it out flipped through the pages, saw a picture of Stonehenge, and said to myself \u201cI have to get back to Stonehenge.\u201d\u00a0 Notice that I did not say \u201cI could never afford that.\u201d\u00a0 I just put the book back on the shelf and went on with my day.\u00a0 Around Christmastime I received a copy of the magazine of the Natural History Museum of New York.\u00a0 At first I thought it was a gift, but no such information came.\u00a0 In the magazine was a description of \u201cThe Island World of Britain.\u201d\u00a0 It involved taking a small cruising boat from Southampton to the Scilly Isles, to the islands off the coast of Wales, to the Island of Lewis in the outer Hebrides where we would see the stone circle of Callanish, to the Orkneys and the Shetlands and down the east coast on the way home.\u00a0 The group would be smallish, 30 or 40 people, and we would have people from the staff along to tell us about what we were seeing.\u00a0 There were bird experts and garden experts, even a Celtic expert.\u00a0 I mentioned it to a friend in dream group, and she said she had seen it and was interested. Shall we?\u00a0 Yes, let’s do it!\u00a0 So we each sent in our $500 deposit.\u00a0 I didn\u2019t know where I was going to get the rest of the money, but I remember thinking, I\u2019ll get a loan, I\u2019ll sell some stock, I\u2019ll get a job, I\u2019ll do what it takes.\u00a0 (Later I learned that those were the magic words, to be \u201cwilling to do what it takes\u201d allows manifestation to happen.)\u00a0 Less than a week later, my parents called saying \u201cWe\u2019re giving you $3000 again this year (this was the amount wealthy people could give their children tax-free) do you want it in stock or cash?\u201d\u00a0 I said \u201cCash please I\u2019m going to Europe.\u201d<\/p>\n

 <\/p>\n

\"\"<\/a>
\n<\/a>
\nCara and I went over a week early, rented a car, and drove to Land\u2019s End in Cornwall, visiting Stonehenge, and every little circle and standing stone we could find on the maps.\u00a0 We went to Glastonbury and the Chalice Well.\u00a0 After the cruise, she went to Findhorn (which I had told her about) and I rented a car, took it across the Channel, and drove around Brittany.
\nIt was, in fact a pilgrimage.\u00a0 Looking back now, I see that the Universe was practically shoving me in the back, saying “This is your Cosmic Job.\u00a0 You are the Keeper of the Calendar.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I was in my thirties.\u00a0 It didn\u2019t look like I was going to get married, and I wanted to settle down in Brunswick, Maine, where I had some friends.\u00a0 I\u2019m lucky enough to be able to live on the money … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3581","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-spirit"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3581","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3581"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3581\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3581"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3581"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3581"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}