{"id":3463,"date":"2013-01-10T19:44:55","date_gmt":"2013-01-11T00:44:55","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=3463"},"modified":"2013-01-10T19:44:55","modified_gmt":"2013-01-11T00:44:55","slug":"new-mantra","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=3463","title":{"rendered":"New Mantra"},"content":{"rendered":"

The most important question a person can ask is, “Is the Universe a friendly place?\u201d
\nAlbert Einstein<\/span><\/p>\n

The friend who asked me if I was holding on to my misery told me \u201cI think you are doing amazing work to pick yourself up and move forward.\u201d\u00a0 Wow, what a shift in my mood \u2014 I could feel myself dropping a load of anger and shame.\u00a0 I wish I weren\u2019t so vulnerable to what other people say to me.\u00a0 This particular idea is a trigger for me because when I was a teenager, my father told me I \u201cwanted to be miserable.\u201d\u00a0 I wrote it in my journal, \u201cI don\u2019t want to be miserable,\u201d\u00a0 but I didn\u2019t know how not to be.\u00a0 I had no idea about PTSD, clinical depression, the consequences of alcoholic parents.\u00a0 When I tried and tried and kept being miserable, I think I began to believe that somehow I must be making it happen.<\/span><\/p>\n

Then I started reading Marianne Williamson\u2019s book \u201cThe Law of Divine Compensation<\/a>,\u201d in which she starts talking about changing your thinking.\u00a0 This always makes me angry because I have worked so hard to change my thinking.\u00a0 I always catch negative thoughts and contradict them.\u00a0 When I find myself saying \u201cI just want to die\u201d I tell myself \u201cYou don\u2019t want to die, you want a life that works.\u201d\u00a0 When I feel like my life is worthless, I say to myself \u201cThis is not reality, this is brain chemistry.\u201d<\/p>\n

These two comments coming so close together were like being hit in the face & asked to look more closely, look at the actual situation.\u00a0 I don\u2019t have negative thoughts, but I do have negative feelings.\u00a0 I saw that I needed to make the context bigger, and the statement more positive, so I worked on the idea that the universe supports me, which is certainly NOT what I\u2019ve been feeling the last couple of weeks.<\/p>\n

So I thought about my understanding of the universe that I know from astronomy and from other scientific studies like the mathematics of chaos.\u00a0 The universe is beautiful, interconnected, complex and creative \u2014 the universe is unbelievably beautiful, extraordinarily complex, intricately interconnected, and outrageously creative.\u00a0 Just writing up a description of that universe, that I know so well, shifts both my feeling and my thinking.\u00a0 Of course that universe wants what\u2019s best for me, how could it want anything else?
\n<\/span><\/p>\n

My new mantra is “the universe is unbelievably beautiful, extraordinarily complex, intricately interconnected, and outrageously creative.”<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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