{"id":3225,"date":"2012-09-25T21:05:04","date_gmt":"2012-09-26T01:05:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=3225"},"modified":"2012-10-15T10:40:53","modified_gmt":"2012-10-15T14:40:53","slug":"the-story-you-havent-told-yet-the-whole-story","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=3225","title":{"rendered":"September 1998: The Story You “Haven’t Told Yet”, the WHOLE story"},"content":{"rendered":"

Another gem from converting old journals.\u00a0 This must have been written after the retreat with Deena Metzger<\/a>.\u00a0 A lot of the writing was done in the retreat, but some of it was done elsewhere.\u00a0 It\u2019s a different way of looking at my life, and I like its oddball quality.<\/p>\n

To tell the story, you have to tell the WHOLE story.\u00a0 Doesn\u2019t mean you let yourself off the hook \u2014 just look at all the factors that influence you.\u00a0 Tell the story, not to understand it, but to illumine all the details.<\/p>\n

I go to \u201cNational Depression Screening Day.\u201d I fill out their questionnaire and am told that I\u2019m in a \u201csevere depression.\u201d I laugh: if this is \u201csevere depression,\u201d I\u2019ve been severely depressed most of my life, ha ha.\u00a0 (This turns out to be true.\u00a0 I couldn\u2019t know it until my brain chemistry was normal.)<\/p>\n

\u201cWrite a story you haven\u2019t told yet, or haven\u2019t told all of it\u2026\u00a0 Imagine that what you\u2019re beginning to write is an offering \u2014 as best you can \u2014 something you do out of love.\u00a0 Try not to limit who you are.\u201d<\/p>\n

What did I notice today?\u00a0 The tiny oak trees in the lawn, cut again and again but refusing to give up, now dense with leaves, bonsai oak trees.\u00a0 Cut down again and again, but still flourishing.<\/p>\n

What my mother taught me about mortality is that you must never acknowledge it.\u00a0 You must never show weakness, or neediness, or difficulty.\u00a0 You must carry on, with head held high.\u00a0 If you never let anyone see your pain, then it doesn\u2019t exist.\u00a0 To help her keep to this code of honor, she drank until her body was saturated with the smell of bourbon.<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

It was too long to make it into a post, so I did it as a page.\u00a0 About Jenny – alternative version.<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Another gem from converting old journals.\u00a0 This must have been written after the retreat with Deena Metzger.\u00a0 A lot of the writing was done in the retreat, but some of it was done elsewhere.\u00a0 It\u2019s a different way of looking … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[9,14,16,4],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3225","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-journal","category-spirit","category-story","category-trauma"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3225","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=3225"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3225\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=3225"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=3225"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=3225"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}