I put together a notebook of good things people have said about me, or times when I\u2019m feeling good.\u00a0 I started it in 2010, culling entries from past journals as well as current ones.\u00a0 I called it my \u201cresource notebook\u201d because a \u201cresource\u201d in Somatic Experiencing is anything that makes you feel more calm, more comfortable, more centered.\u00a0 It doesn\u2019t have to be a real experience, the body responds to an image the same way it does to a reality.\u00a0 It\u2019s also true of things that scare you.\u00a0 You can be re-traumatized by telling your trauma story.<\/p>\n
I put together the notebook, hoping that as I read it over and over I\u2019d begin to change my habitual self-rejection.\u00a0 Reading through it recently, I noticed posts from the end of 2008, when I had a breakdown in the fall.\u00a0 I was really struggling and even the \u201cpositive\u201d journal entries are full of pain.\u00a0 So I\u2019m doing another series from that time period. I put together a notebook of good things people have said about me, or times when I\u2019m feeling good.\u00a0 I started it in 2010, culling entries from past journals as well as current ones.\u00a0 I called it my \u201cresource notebook\u201d … Continue reading
\nOne of the things I did was go to a retreat at Kripalu with Jack Kornfield.\u00a0 I respect Jack Kornfield highly, Kripalu is a place where I feel safe, and I\u2019d been to one retreat with him there and it had been very helpful.\u00a0 It was disappointing when I had a very hard time at this retreat.\u00a0\u00a0 See \u201cToo Much Pain\u201d<\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"