(Written in January 2011)
\nIt really helped to see Caryn.\u00a0 I told her about how tired I\u2019ve been feeling.\u00a0 She said \u201cHow does that feel in your body?\u201d Relaxed & heavy.\u00a0 I told her I\u2019d been doing stretches & the fold without the bolster.\u00a0 She was delighted, says that\u2019s major healing, especially how my right ankle is OK with lying flat.\u00a0 She says my body is much softer.\u00a0 I told her about the women in Enduring Lives, & St Teresa saying at first you have to dig \u2014 and I mimed digging \u2014 but eventually it begins to flow \u2014 and I made a gesture like bringing down rain.\u00a0 I said I was angry and jealous that I hadn\u2019t got to that point.\u00a0 She said you\u2019ve done a lot of digging.\u00a0 I agreed.\u00a0 Then she said it was the first time I\u2019d make that gesture of bringing something down.\u00a0 She said it was always coming down and all I had to do was let it in drop by drop.\u00a0 I told her about the idea that when you were on your true path, synchronicities would help and support you on your way.\u00a0 I reminded her of my experience of god and shells and asked \u201cDo I need to let go of the slide show?\u201d She thought I should call Anthony and see if there\u2019s something I could do to help him get the tape converted to digital.\u00a0 Then I said I wanted to work on my neck.\u00a0 She asked how I spend most of my time.\u00a0 Sitting on this couch with a slightly slumped posture.\u00a0 She said it would be better if I could either find a way to sit up on the couch, or get up periodically to ease my body.\u00a0 I\u2019m sitting straighter now, tho not how it would be if I were on a cushion.\u00a0 I\u2019ve put the journal on the cushion to raise it up higher.\u00a0 That helps some.\u00a0 Ideally I could sit on a cushion on the floor and write on a low table.\u00a0 The trouble is I like being near the fire, I like having the dog next to me, I like having the view of the patio.\u00a0 I\u2019ll work something out.\u00a0 Caryn showed me how to roll & pour my head in a limited space with a folded blanket for my head.\u00a0 I could do it in the loft after doing my stretches.
\nO yes, when Caryn talked about how I had worked so hard, & needed to rest from my labors, it occurred to me that maybe I needed to spend down time, integrating, before I\u2019ll be ready to do the slide show.\u00a0 In which case, the delay has been necessary.\u00a0 Having that interpretation helped a lot, allowed me to accept the delay, and paradoxically I started to have more energy.\u00a0 Though that was already happening on Sunday when I walked to Skogumchuk and danced Santiago.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in January 2011) It really helped to see Caryn.\u00a0 I told her about how tired I\u2019ve been feeling.\u00a0 She said \u201cHow does that feel in your body?\u201d Relaxed & heavy.\u00a0 I told her I\u2019d been doing stretches & the … Continue reading