(Written in June 2009)
\nIt rained in the morning, then got very windy with gleams of sun.\u00a0 Randi and I walked to the picnic table in the wind and sun and it was exhilarating instead of terrifying which was wonderful!\u00a0 To be able to enjoy the power of the wind, the roar in the trees, the flying clouds, the sunlight, the way the trees bowed and quivered and the leaves were almost inside out.\u00a0 We came back and did some toning together and had tea.<\/p>\n
Woke OK! I actually felt happy last night dancing.\u00a0 The board meeting with Katrine was wonderful!\u00a0 It was so heartwarming to hear the stories of what Neskaya has meant to people.\u00a0 And very exciting to hear their ideas for how Neskaya might grow.\u00a0 The energy and enthusiasm buoyed me up, lifted me.\u00a0 I\u2019m part of a team now, part of a circle, a container.\u00a0 No longer the leader on point.<\/p>\n
Woke OK!\u00a0 The session with Caryn really helped a lot.\u00a0 We made a map of my life in which sadness had a part but was not the whole thing.\u00a0 It clarified and filled out the sense I had with Karen of being in a neutral place, where it was OK to do nothing, and looking at all the things I might do, but didn\u2019t have to do.\u00a0 There was: the Jizo statue and shrine, the celebration of my life, the Forest Path, Dancing and Decorating Neskaya, allowing positive feedback to reach me, the energy of healthy anger, creating deeper connections with community, and NVC.\u00a0 There was also a place for sadness and grief work, and a place for resting.\u00a0 Caryn said I might have to rest for months to recover from pushing myself unmercifully for most of my life.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in June 2009) It rained in the morning, then got very windy with gleams of sun.\u00a0 Randi and I walked to the picnic table in the wind and sun and it was exhilarating instead of terrifying which was wonderful!\u00a0 … Continue reading