(Written in August 2009)
\nI did have a number of waves of fear yesterday, but none of them lasted very long which is encouraging.\u00a0 Told Beverly about my project of compiling all the good experiences into a document that I read every day, how feeling good about myself is pushing against the ancient injunction \u201cDon\u2019t think you\u2019re so great.\u201d Sitting here writing I remind myself that my commitment is not just to love the part of me that is \u201cgood\u201d but to love all of me: the Shambhala warrior and the traumatized baby, the priestess who leads the dance, and the tough little drip that just wouldn\u2019t quit.\u00a0 Imagining this little group of Jennys warms my heart.<\/p>\n
Second cup of tea.\u00a0 I\u2019m feeling very sad this morning, and also that odd feeling of having no motivation.\u00a0 I\u2019m doing my best to just be with it.\u00a0 It really helped yesterday when I imagined all the Jennys from the traumatized baby to the Shambhala warrior.\u00a0 And I\u2019m feeling better now.\u00a0 That\u2019s so amazing!\u00a0 Yes, I welcome all the parts of me in, whatever you have done or not done, I love you all.<\/p>\n
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