(Written in August 2009)
\nOne of the downsides of having a really good week is that the slight amount of discomfort I\u2019m feeling now \u2014 a little sad & scared \u2014 feels like a failure.\u00a0 What\u2019s wrong with me that I couldn\u2019t sustain it when I got there?\u00a0 No, it\u2019s not that I \u201cdid something wrong,\u201d it\u2019s that life has ups & downs.\u00a0 And my practice is: to bring compassion to this woman who is angry at herself for being scared & sad.\u00a0 There there dear, it\u2019s natural to feel scared & sad.\u00a0 So much of your life was spent in futile struggle against the symptoms of PTSD because you were traumatized in infancy and didn\u2019t know what had happened to you.\u00a0 You learned to make yourself wrong for being terrified and depressed so much of the time.\u00a0 Dear, you are truly a bodhisattva who chose this lifetime for the purpose of healing.\u00a0 That means all of your work on yourself, even the techniques that failed to help because they were designed for more ordinary lives, not for PTSD.\u00a0 You have learned to be more and more compassionate, toward yourself and toward others.\u00a0 None of your work has been wasted.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in August 2009) One of the downsides of having a really good week is that the slight amount of discomfort I\u2019m feeling now \u2014 a little sad & scared \u2014 feels like a failure.\u00a0 What\u2019s wrong with me that … Continue reading