{"id":229,"date":"2010-03-23T20:39:04","date_gmt":"2010-03-23T20:39:04","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=229"},"modified":"2011-01-17T09:28:40","modified_gmt":"2011-01-17T14:28:40","slug":"somatic-experiencing-2","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=229","title":{"rendered":"Somatic Experiencing"},"content":{"rendered":"

(Written in May 2009)
\nIntense session with Caryn.\u00a0 Set up the corner with the beanbag blocking in a smaller space.\u00a0 Told her that I\u2019d been working on the loss of healthy sexuality, that I\u2019d read the pages to Karen and cried.\u00a0 I started crying, the quiet hopeless kind.\u00a0 Then I wanted to bang my head and pound my knees.\u00a0 Caryn said I had to get the anger directed outward, imagine turning the arrows outward.\u00a0 Part of what was hard was there was no one person to aim the anger at.\u00a0 Caryn mentioned the black cloth, and then I could see a tangle of messages like a snarl of yarns.\u00a0 I imagined a big shiny Samurai sword, swung it in slow motion over my head and down to chop the beanbag in two.\u00a0 It felt very satisfying.\u00a0 I could feel that my whole body was involved.\u00a0 The movement reminded me of my dance in Journey Into Courage<\/a>.\u00a0 There was another piece, I can\u2019t remember if it was before or after the sword.\u00a0 I was sitting in the corner with my knees up and my lower arms parallel to my thighs.\u00a0 I think I was exploring whether they wanted to pound my legs, when they began to move back and forth sideways.\u00a0 It was a little disconcerting, having my body make that big a motion without my volition.\u00a0 At one point, again I\u2019m not sure of the sequence, I tried to get very small, to disappear.\u00a0 This involved lots of tension in arms and torso pulling back, head down.\u00a0 Then I was tired, wanting to put my head down, so I curled up on the beanbag with my back to the room, and Caryn snuggled up close so I could feel her.
\nI think it was a big session, though I couldn\u2019t say exactly what happened.\u00a0 I think it was good that I broke through the crying to anger.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(Written in May 2009) Intense session with Caryn.\u00a0 Set up the corner with the beanbag blocking in a smaller space.\u00a0 Told her that I\u2019d been working on the loss of healthy sexuality, that I\u2019d read the pages to Karen and … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[7],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-229","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-somatic-experiencing"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/229","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=229"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/229\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=229"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=229"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=229"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}