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(Written in February 2011)
\nWent in to Caryn\u2019s studio & demanded my corner so we set it up.\u00a0 Told her about wanting to learn all about Elisabeth and considering that a sign of health.\u00a0 Also about weathering two disappointments \u2014 the food I bought for Eleanor didn’t work, and the slide show still isn’t happening \u2014 but then being brought down by the House cutting the budget for Planned Parenthood.\u00a0 I said I saw the parallel with my family \u2014 stupid unfairness and being helpless against it.\u00a0 Then I had nothing to talk about, so I paid attention to my body.\u00a0 Felt relaxed and comfortable.\u00a0 Then maybe Caryn asked about integrating the negativity and I was reminded of that session with Kevin when I became a planet by accepting all the dark rigid parts, like mom & dad, as well as the more attractive parts of me.\u00a0 She said \u201cCan you feel that in your body now?\u201d I saw that I could.\u00a0 There was a lot of diversity, and the dark rigid pieces felt more like a community \u2014 yes! They have self-organized out of the chaotic group!\u00a0 I don\u2019t think I had got that far to tell Caryn.\u00a0 Then I did some movement \u2014 mostly stretch, on the floor.\u00a0 She said she saw an organism expanding, but not defensively.\u00a0 So then, remembering the feeling I had come in with, I curled into painful tense postures, then kicked & punched which felt good.\u00a0 We talked about the question how did I weather the two disappointments on Friday only to be felled by politics on Saturday?\u00a0 Who knows?\u00a0 It\u2019s probably a number of factors, whether I\u2019m feeling strong or vulnerable, etc.\u00a0 I can see that I\u2019m more resilient, I know I can call a friend, like I called Bobbi after S crashed me.\u00a0 Caryn recapitulated all the work I had done to get to this place.\u00a0 That was good, I could feel it as a strong foundation.\u00a0 I told her part of my anger at the House for trashing Planned Parenthood came from knowing some facts: the Freakonomics connection of reduction in crime with Roe vs. Wade, and Bessel VanderKolk\u2019s story of the study in which the babies whose mothers had been \u201cvisited\u201d did not produce as high a percentage of criminals as those who weren\u2019t visited.\u00a0 At one point my mind started to wander off to the horrors Barbara Kingsolver<\/a> tells about, and then I pulled myself back \u2014 in fact perhaps pulled myself back to state these data that contradict the vote of the House.\u00a0 I also talked about non-linearity, which is always a comfort when I imagine the Republican onslaught continuing to build without resistance.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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