(Written in August 2008)
\nDear Guides and Guardian Spirits, it\u2019s been a very stressful time, and I feel totally out of touch with Spirit.\u00a0 Please help me.<\/p>\n
Dear Jenny, we love you.\u00a0 Take flower remedies.\u00a0 Yes, you have impossibly high expectations of your own performance, and traumatized fear of what will happen if you don\u2019t do it \u201cright\u201d.\u00a0 Of course you\u2019re upset and triggered.\u00a0 There, there, dear.\u00a0 Yes, an appointment with Karen would be a good idea.\u00a0 Your feelings of inadequacy and hopelessness are triggered from your childhood.\u00a0 This is how you felt growing up in your family with parents who were badly prepared to raise children and crippled by alcoholism.\u00a0 You could see that things were very wrong, but you had no examples of how it could be done well, how children could be raised in a healthy and functional manner.\u00a0 There was no one you could trust, or lean on, or ask for guidance and support.\u00a0 So you \u201csoldiered on.\u201d\u00a0\u00a0 It\u2019s the only thing you know how to do. And when things get tough, it\u2019s your default mechanism, it\u2019s what you fall into easily \u2014 it\u2019s the only coping skill you have when you get triggered into the past.\u00a0 Unfortunately, it cuts you off from other people, from the help and support that is there for you.\u00a0 You don\u2019t ask for it because you learned from your parents not to \u201cburden\u201d other people with your difficulties.\u00a0 So you \u201csoldier on\u201d, use up your reserves of energy, and then collapse.\u00a0 This is your life.\u00a0 This does not mean that you aren\u2019t doing good work for the world you love.\u00a0 Despite your wounds, you continue to hold a vision of peace and love, kindness and cooperation, sustainability and justice.\u00a0 You continue to do your best to act out of kindness not anger, out of love and vision, not fear.\u00a0 Yes, you get tired.\u00a0 But you do not quit.\u00a0 We love you and we are so proud of you.<\/em><\/p>\n Thank you.\u00a0 I\u2019m sitting here in tears, my armor has softened, everything relaxing and resting on the earth.\u00a0 This is what I needed to hear from Mom & Dad, or teachers, or that older & wiser person I keep wishing I had to turn to.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" (Written in August 2008) Dear Guides and Guardian Spirits, it\u2019s been a very stressful time, and I feel totally out of touch with Spirit.\u00a0 Please help me. Dear Jenny, we love you.\u00a0 Take flower remedies.\u00a0 Yes, you have impossibly high … Continue reading