{"id":1957,"date":"2011-10-12T10:54:35","date_gmt":"2011-10-12T14:54:35","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=1957"},"modified":"2011-10-20T08:00:52","modified_gmt":"2011-10-20T12:00:52","slug":"gratitude","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=1957","title":{"rendered":"Gratitude"},"content":{"rendered":"

(Written in May 2011)
\nLately I\u2019ve had blowing through me an enormous rush of gratitude for depression and PTSD, because it kept me from falling into the numerous pitfalls that are available in our culture.\u00a0 I\u2019m not sure where this has come from.\u00a0 Maybe from Ram Dass, Still Here<\/a>, where he recounts all his attachments to roles.\u00a0 This was a surprise to me, I thought he\u2019d done more spiritual work than that.\u00a0 Also Byron Katie<\/a> \u2014 the beliefs that people need to work their way through, that I\u2019ve already dropped.\u00a0 Maybe it\u2019s Ram Dass talking about the difficulties of aging, especially the loss of roles like \u201cproductive worker\u201d, the attempts to hang on to youth through exercise, surgery, hair dye, etc.\u00a0 And I think I\u2019ve really been lucky.\u00a0 I remember my first grey hairs at age 28, and feeling proud of them.\u00a0 \u201cI\u2019ve earned them.\u201d I\u2019ve had some difficulties with the waning of my energy, but then that\u2019s been an issue for so long and I\u2019ve been working on letting go of the pushpushpush.\u00a0 Even the waning of my sexual energy \u2014 that\u2019s been such a relief.\u00a0 O yes, listening to David Whyte on the trip to Holderness, he\u2019s talking about the \u2018pitfalls\u2019, Robert Bly\u2019s black bag which holds all the rejected parts of you \u2014 I don\u2019t have any rejected parts any more.\u00a0 Maybe that\u2019s why the full acceptance of the traumatized baby and the angry 5 yr-old has brought me to this sense of coming to a threshold.\u00a0 I\u2019m all here now.\u00a0 Good work Jenny!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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