(Written in June 2004)
\nTold Karen about being the baby \u2014 then about feelings of resistance and disgust to the idea of taking care of myself.\u00a0 She said it was OK to have those feelings.\u00a0 We explored the reality \u2014 that it\u2019s not an infant that requires 24-hour a day care.\u00a0 When I paid attention to the infant I got that what she needed was just my presence, my attention, my willingness to be with her, and to see her correctly.\u00a0 OF COURSE!\u00a0 She\u2019s not a physical baby but an emotional one, she doesn\u2019t need physical nurturing so much as\u00a0 emotional nourishing \u2014 and I can do that.\u00a0 I told Karen that this time being with the baby was different \u2014 I felt compassion go out to her, but not that I had to fix it or make it better.\u00a0 Karen said she could tell that, that in the past I had seen the baby as a \u2018chore\u2019, a \u2018burden\u2019\u00a0 (which of course is how mother saw me).<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in June 2004) Told Karen about being the baby \u2014 then about feelings of resistance and disgust to the idea of taking care of myself.\u00a0 She said it was OK to have those feelings.\u00a0 We explored the reality \u2014 … Continue reading