(Written in June 2004)
\nRough day yesterday.\u00a0 A lot of fear & sense of alienation from my life.\u00a0 A beautiful day but I wasn\u2019t really present to it, etc.\u00a0 A lot of pain about the ecological crisis, letter from Barbara Kingsolver about the animal species headed for extinction, the potential disaster of global warming \u2014 and feeling bad again about my house, so unsustainably built \u2014 It occurred to me this morning that my house is like me \u2014 a mixed bag of creativity and health and disfunction.\u00a0 I can love it, even tho it\u2019s not \u201cperfect\u201d \u2014 I can even love its \u201cimperfection\u201d as I love the battered and starved baby just as she is.\u00a0 Can I love myself too, love my mistakes and unconsciousness?\u00a0 I feel a softening, tears coming.\u00a0 Dear Jenny, I do love you, I love your brilliances and your mistakes, your creativity and your inhibitions, your passion and your blindness \u2014 you are doing the best you can with a truly difficult set of factors.<\/p>\n
\u201cShamans know that those wounds are not their own but the world\u2019s.\u201d (Matthew Fox)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in June 2004) Rough day yesterday.\u00a0 A lot of fear & sense of alienation from my life.\u00a0 A beautiful day but I wasn\u2019t really present to it, etc.\u00a0 A lot of pain about the ecological crisis, letter from Barbara … Continue reading