(Written in March 2009)
\nYesterday was pretty bad \u2014 severe nausea all day.\u00a0\u00a0 Barbara came & agreed to come stay for a few days.\u00a0 She\u2019ll help with food & housework & walking the dog.\u00a0 What a relief.
\nIf only I could feel some love instead of this stony lostness.<\/p>\n
I am creating for myself well being every day.
\nI am getting better every day.
\nI am doing the best I can.<\/p>\n
2PM. Turkeys appear.\u00a0 I am in a healing process.<\/p>\n
I am in a healing process.\u00a0 Kayla suggested that I needed to be saying\/thinking something affirmative so this is the one I\u2019m using most.
\nI\u2019m so tired.\u00a0 Barbara is being a huge help \u2014 cooking meals & washing dishes.\u00a0 Having someone to eat with really keeps the nausea at bay.<\/p>\n
Session with Caryn:
\nFeeling lost is because I\u2019m dismantling very old and dysfunctional coping strategies.
\nFeeling disconnected from Neskaya etc is because those things I really care about have to be uncoupled from effort effort.
\nAllow myself to notice that I\u2019m asking for help and receiving it.
\nAllow myself to notice and be curious about things that are different.
\nNotice: I\u2019m no longer so scared and lost when I express the really deep old feelings.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
(Written in March 2009) Yesterday was pretty bad \u2014 severe nausea all day.\u00a0\u00a0 Barbara came & agreed to come stay for a few days.\u00a0 She\u2019ll help with food & housework & walking the dog.\u00a0 What a relief. If only I … Continue reading