{"id":1606,"date":"2011-06-07T09:31:31","date_gmt":"2011-06-07T13:31:31","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=1606"},"modified":"2011-12-26T10:30:48","modified_gmt":"2011-12-26T15:30:48","slug":"surrender","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/?p=1606","title":{"rendered":"Surrender"},"content":{"rendered":"

(Written in February 2009)
\nI\u2019ve started asking God to please show me what to do.\u00a0 I\u2019m trying to surrender my life into his\/her\/its\/their hands \u2014 I can\u2019t do this so you must.\u00a0 Please, if there is any meaning or value to my life, it there\u2019s any contribution I\u2019m supposed to make to the welfare of the planet, please show me what to do and please heal me so I can do it.<\/p>\n

Actually no nausea yet today.\u00a0 But I have been feeling extremely lost and weak.\u00a0 I was too tired to walk the dog & had to ask a friend to do it.<\/p>\n

I\u2019m again considering being hospitalized.\u00a0 It\u2019s just being too hard to keep going and my brain is not working very well.\u00a0 I worry about what I would do in the hospital \u2014 no Bella, no friends, no books, no puzzles \u2014<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

(Written in February 2009) I\u2019ve started asking God to please show me what to do.\u00a0 I\u2019m trying to surrender my life into his\/her\/its\/their hands \u2014 I can\u2019t do this so you must.\u00a0 Please, if there is any meaning or value … Continue reading →<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[10,14],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1606","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-breakdown","category-spirit"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1606","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1606"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1606\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1606"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1606"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/jennydeupree.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1606"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}